"Mtanda kwenikweni ndi yankho mu mkhalidwe uliwonse," akutero Fedora. "Mukudziwa, kunyumba ndi ana anga asanu ndi mmodzi, akundiyang'anira. Ndipo kuposa china chilichonse ndikufuna kuwasonyeza kuti mtanda umagwiradi ntchito! Umu ndi mmene mumakhalira. Umenewu ndi moyo weniweni, weniweni!"
Fedora ndi munthu wosangalala. Ndi nkhope yomwe imawala ndi kutentha ndi ubwino, iye akufotokoza za momwe anabwera ku moyo "wopachikidwa" ndi Yesu.
"Pamene ndinali kukula ndinapeza kuti ndinalidi ndi mkwiyo woipa. Mkwiyo wambiri, mukudziwa. Ngati chinthu chochepa chabe chikachitika, ndikanakwiya.
"Ndikukumbukira kuti ndinalira za izi. Ndinapemphera kuti: 'Ambuye Yesu, ndidzatha liti ndi zimenezi?' Koma kenako bambo anandiuza kuti, 'Mtanda wokha ndi umene ungakupangitseni kukhala mfulu. Ndipo ukakhala mfulu, choonadi chikakhala chokumasulani, mumakhaladi mfulu.'" (Yohane 8:32.)
Yankho lake loyamba linali, "Bambo, sindikudziwa. Ndikuganiza kuti mkwiyo uwu... Ndidzakhala nazo nthawi zonse."
Mtanda unandipangitsa kukhala womasukadi
Zinali zovuta kuti Fedora akhulupirire kuti n'zotheka kuti asiye kukwiya kwambiri. Iye anapitirizabe kukwiya mkati, makamaka pamene anali ndi abale ndi alongo ake. Koma kenako mapemphero ake anayankhidwa - adapeza chikhulupiriro chenicheni pa zomwe Yesu akunena pa Luka 9:23 (CEB):
"Onse amene akufuna kubwera pambuyo panga ayenera kukana okha, kutenga mtanda wawo tsiku ndi tsiku, ndi kunditsatira."
Iye anasankha kungokhulupirira zimene anaŵerenga m'Baibulo. Iye anapeza chikhulupiriro chakuti kunali kotheka kotheratu kutsatira Yesu m'moyo wake, Iye amene Iye mwini ananena Kuti Ayi ku zikhumbo zauchimo m'chibadwa Chake chaumunthu, tsiku lililonse, m'mikhalidwe yonse. (Ahebri 2: 14-17; 4:14.)
"Panali nthawi zambiri zimene ndinagwera, kumene sizinapambane. Koma sindinagonja. Ndipo m'kupita kwa nthaŵi, chikhulupiriro changa chinakula. Zambiri ndinayamba kupambana nkhondo," akutero. Kulimbana ndi zimene mukufuna kuchita kuli ngati nkhondo imene mukumenya pankhondo. M'nkhondo yamkati yolimbana ndi mkwiyo wake ndi kukwiya, iye anali kuyamba kugonjetsa mowonjezereka.
Kodi pafunika chiyani kuti mugonjetse?
"Ndinafunikira kutenga Mawu a Milungu ndi kuchita izo; kunyumba – kumene ndinali kutaya mkwiyo."
Zimamveka zosavuta kwambiri pamene akulankhula za izo. Mtendere wake ndi chidaliro pamene akulankhula ndizodabwitsa, ndipo zikuwonekeratu kuti ichi ndi chinthu chomwe wakumana nacho ndikugwiritsa ntchito. Koma kodi pafunika chiyani kuti tigonjetse?
Ndimamufunsa ngati m'Baibulo muli vesi linalake limene lamuthandiza. Iye akuyankha mofulumira kuti, "Kwa ine, pamene ndinali wamng'ono, mavesi awa mu Aefeso 6 anandithandiza kwambiri. Za kuvala zida zonse za Mulungu. Kuti ndigonjetse m'mikhalidwe, ndinafunikiradi chishango cha chikhulupiriro, chisoti cha chipulumutso ndi lupanga la Mzimu, monga momwe zalembedwera kumeneko."
"Valani zida zonse zimene Mulungu amakupatsani, kuti muthe kuima motsutsana ndi machenjerero oipa a Mdyerekezi ... Nthawi zonse kunyamula chikhulupiriro monga chishango; pakuti mudzakhoza kutulutsa mivi yonse yoyaka moto yowomberedwa ndi Woipayo. Ndipo landirani chipulumutso monga chisoti, ndi mawu a Mulungu monga lupanga limene Mzimu amakupatsani. Chitani zonsezi m'pemphero, kupempha thandizo la Mulungu. Pempherani pa chochitika chilichonse, pamene Mzimu akutsogolera. Pachifukwa ichi khalani tcheru ndipo musataye mtima; pempherani nthawi zonse anthu onse a Mulungu." Aefeso 6:11,16-18 https://biblia.com/bible/nkjv/Ephesians 6.16-18 (GNT).
"Ndiyenera kukonzekera ndekha. Chifukwa ndi nkhondo!" akutero. "Ndiyenera kupemphera. Ndiyenera kuwerenga Mawu a Milungu. Kwa ine, ndinayenera kuchita zimenezo tsiku lililonse. Sindikanatha kupambana popanda zimenezo."
Iye amalankhula mosangalala za mmene iye, mothandizidwa ndi pemphero ndi Mawu a Mulungu, analandirira mphamvu ndi chithandizo cha kupachika (kukana ) zinthu zauchimo zimene anayesedwa.
Paulo analemba kuti: "Ndapachikidwa pamodzi ndi Khristu ..." Agalatiya 2:20. Paulo sanapachikidwe pamtanda wakuthupi. Iye amagwiritsa ntchito mawu amenewa ngati chizindikiro pofotokoza kuti chifuniro chake chomwe chinafuna kuchita tchimo "chinapachikidwa". Machimo athu ayenera "kupachikidwa", ayenera kukhala "pamtanda", ayenera kufa, ndipo chifukwa chake sayenera kulamuliranso zochita zathu. Munthu amene amakhala "moyo wopachikidwa" ndi munthu amene salola kuti uchimo uzilamulira zochita zake. Amagonjetsa uchimo.
M'kupita kwa nthaŵi, Fedora anaona kuti mkwiyo wake unakhala vuto lochepa kwambiri. M'malo mwake, Mulungu anamthandiza kukhala woleza mtima ndi wokoma mtima kwa abale ndi alongo ake.
"Ndipo kugonjetsa ngati kuti ... zinangondidzaza ndi chimwemwe chambiri!" akutero akumwetulira kwambiri. "Ndi mmene zinalili kwa ine. Chimwemwe chambiri. Mtanda unandipangitsadi kukhala mfulu. Ndipo kenako nditakula, ndinkatha kunena kuti: Ndapachikidwa pamodzi ndi Khristu. Si ine amene ndili ndi moyo, koma Khristu amakhala mwa ine." (Agalatiya 2:20.)
Akufunikabe mtanda
Fedora amalankhula ndi chidaliro chosavuta komanso chodekha. Umenewu ndi moyo umene wakhala nawo kale kwa zaka zambiri, ndipo umene angachitire umboni molimba mtima kuti umagwira ntchito. Koma kodi wafika patali kwambiri moti sakufunanso mtanda?
"O ayi!" iye akutero. "Ndikufuna mtanda kuposa kale."
Ngakhale kuti adagonjetsa m'madera ambiri m'moyo wake, adzakuuzani kuti Mulungu akupitiriza kuwonetsa madera ake atsopano kumene kudakali tchimo lina lomwe ayenera kuchotsa - zinthu zomwe sanaziwone ngati tchimo kale.
Monga mayi wa ana asanu ndi mmodzi, nthaŵi zina amapeza mkwiyo wake wakale ukuyesa kubweranso. Pamene ana ake akukangana ndi kudandaula, ndipo aliyense amafuna chisamaliro chake panthaŵi imodzi, iye amamva kukhumudwa mkati. Koma iye amadziwa kumenya nkhondoyo. Iye amadziŵa kuti safunikira kugonja ku chiyeso cha kukwiya. "Ndikugwirabe ntchito pa gawo limenelo la mkwiyo. Nkhondo zambiri zapambana. Koma ndikuyesedwabe kuti ndikwiye, ndikulimbanabe ndi "mdani" ameneyo. Koma ndimakhulupirira ndi mtima wanga wonse kuti tsiku lina "mdani" ameneyo adzagonjetsedwa kotheratu."
Pa masiku amene anali wotanganidwa, sakhala ndi nthawi yambiri yowerenga Mawu a Mulungu ngati mmene ankachitira ali wamng'ono. Iye akuti kuimba nyimbo za chikhulupiriro kumathandiza kwambiri. Kuimba nyimbo zolembedwa ndi amuna ndi akazi opembedza amene akhala ndi moyo wokhulupirika kumabweretsa mzimu wabwino m'nyumba.
"Nthawi zina chilichonse mwa ine chimafuna kunena kuti, 'Aliyense akhale chete!' 'Pitani kuchipinda chanu' - ndipo ndithudi, nthawi zina muyenera kuchita zimenezo," akuwonjezera mwamsanga, "Koma choyamba ndiyenera kukhala wodekha, kenako ndikhoza kukonza anawo," akutero akuseka.
Yesani!
Ndikumufunsa zomwe anganene kwa munthu yemwe sakhulupirira mphamvu ndi thandizo la mtanda kuti agonjetse m'mayesero.
"Ngati sakhulupirira, ndidzanena kuti, 'Yesani kaye. Yesani! Ndipo ngati sizikuthandizani, ndiye kuti sindikudziwa, ndingadabwe kwambiri,'" akutero.
"Koma yesani, chifukwa Mzimu wa Yesu ndi wamphamvu kwambiri moti ungathandize pa vuto lililonse."