"Iwe ndiwe mayi wodzikonda. Simuli mkazi wachikondi. Mwakhala mukulimbana ndi zinthu zomwezo kwa zaka zambiri. Munayenera kupita patsogolo kwambiri tsopano. Nthawi zonse mwakhala chonchi ndipo nthawi zonse mudzakhala."
Nthawi zambiri zinali mitundu yomweyo ya mikhalidwe yomwe inayamba "kukambirana ndi ndekha" izi. Ndinkafuna kuchita zabwino ndi kutsatira Yesu, koma ndinkakwiyabe ndi ana anga, kunena zinthu zopanda chifundo kwa mwamuna wanga, kapena kusamala kwambiri ndi zimene anthu ena ankandiganizira. Zinthu zimenezi zitangochitika, nthawi yomweyo ndinamva milandu imeneyi mkati. Nthaŵi zonse ndinkavutika ndi malingaliro a liwongo ndi kulefulidwa kuti sipadzakhala kusintha kwenikweni mwa ine. Ngakhale kuti ndinkadana nazo, ndinali nditazolowera kumvetsera maganizo amenewa n'kumagwirizana nawo. Ndinkaona kuti ndilibe mphamvu ndipo zinaoneka ngati Mulungu ali kutali.
Ndinadziŵa kuti zinenezo zimenezi sizinali zochokera kwa Mulungu, chifukwa sizinabweretse mtendere kapena malingaliro a mtsogolo odzazidwa ndi chiyembekezo. (Yeremiya 29:11.) Ndinkadziwa kuti maganizo amenewa akuchokera kwa Satana, yemwe Baibulo limanena kuti ndi "womuimba mlandu." (Chivumbulutso 12:10.) Ndipo ndinadziŵanso kuti cholinga cha Satana chinali kuba mtendere wanga ndi chimwemwe, chifukwa iye ndi mbala ndi wowononga, amene akufuna kuwononga chikhulupiriro changa. Koma ndinkaonabe kuti ndilibe mphamvu zochitapo kanthu chifukwa ndinkaona kuti zonsezi ndi zoona. "Ndikudziwa," ndinaganiza. "Zonsezo ndi zoona. Sindingathe. Sindingathe kukhala wabwino."
Ndinadziŵa kuti m'mawu a Mulungu munali mphamvu ndi m'pemphero, koma pamene woimbidwa mlanduyo ananong'oneza m'khutu mwanga, ndinamangidwa, ndipo zinaoneka ngati sizinathandize kupemphera. Chifukwa chakuti moyo wanga unali wotanganidwa kwambiri, sindinawerenge mawu a Mulungu kapena kupemphera kwambiri ngakhale pang'ono. Sizinali zofunika kwambiri kwa ine. Ndiyeno, pamene Satana anabwera ndi zinenezo zake, ndinalibe cholimbana nacho ndipo ndinali kukhala ndi malingaliro anga ndi malingaliro anga kufikira nditakhumudwa kotheratu ndi kulefulidwa.
Zinthu zikuonekera bwino
Panthaŵi ina mkati mwa imodzi ya nthaŵi zotsika zimenezi, ndinaganiza zofufuza mavesi onse amene ndinapeza ponena za kukhala ndi Mulungu pafupi ndi kupeza nyonga ndi thandizo kwa Iye. Pamene ndinaŵerenga kwambiri, m'pamenenso ndinakhala womvekera bwino kwa ine kuti pali zinthu zina zofunika kulandira mphamvu kuchokera kwa Mulungu ndi kukhala naye pafupi. Mwachitsanzo, lemba la 2 Mbiri 16:9 (GNB): "Yehova amayang'anitsitsa dziko lonse lapansi, kuti apereke mphamvu kwa anthu amene mitima yawo ndi yokhulupirika kwa Iye." Ndipo Yakobo 4:7-8 (NCV): "Choncho dzipatseni nokha kotheratu kwa Mulungu. Imani motsutsana ndi satana, ndipo mdierekezi adzakuthawani. Yandikirani kwa Mulungu, ndipo Mulungu adzayandikira kwa inu."
Ndinayenera kudzifunsa kuti, kodi mtima wanga ndi wokhulupirika kwa Mulungu ndikasankha kumvetsera woimbidwa mlanduyo? Kodi ndadzipereka kotheratu kwa Mulungu ndi kuyandikira kwa Iye ndi mtima woyera pamene ndigonja ku malingaliro opsinjika maganizo ponena za mmene zinthu zayendera m'mbuyomu? Osati ngakhale pafupi. Mikhalidwe yolandira mphamvu Zake ndi thandizo inakhala yomveka bwino kwa ine. Mtima wanga sunali wokhulupirika kwa Mulungu. Ndinali kukhulupirira malingaliro anga ndi malingaliro anga m'malo mokhulupirira mokwanira Mwa Iye ndi malonjezo Ake. M'malo mwa kuthera nthaŵi yanga ndi malingaliro kufunafuna chifuniro Chake ndi kupeza chimene chiri chokondweretsa kwa Iye, ndinali nditathera icho ndikulankhula ndi woimbidwa mlandu, Satana. Ndinafunikira kumenya nkhondo kuti malingaliro anga ndi mtima wanga zikhale zoyera kwa Mulungu kuti ndilandire mphamvu Zake kuti woimbidwa mlanduyo ataye mphamvu zake pa ine.
Ndinayenera kukhala wokangalika
Mpaka nthawi imeneyo ndinali nditapanga zifukwa zodzikhululukira kuti ndisakhale ndi nthawi yokwanira, koma ndinapanga chisankho ndiye kuti ndizitha nthawi iliyonse yaulere yomwe ndinali nayo pa moyo wanga wotanganidwa tsiku lililonse kuti ndiwerenge mawu a Mulungu ndi kupemphera. Ndapeza kuti pamene nthawi zonse ndikufunafuna chifuniro Chake kwa ine pa chilichonse chimene ndikunena ndi kuchita, kulankhula ndi Yesu monga Bwenzi langa ndi Mthandizi ndi kupempherera ena, imakhala mtundu wina wa nkhondo. Ndikakhala ndi mawu a Mulungu m'maganizo mwanga ndipo ndimadzazidwa ndi Mzimu, ndiye kuti ndimakhala maso kwambiri ndi mayesero, ndipo ndimatha kulimbana ndi zinthu monga kusaleza mtima, kufunafuna ulemu, ndi zina zotero, ndisanapereke kwa iwo. Mawu a Mulungu ndi chida chimene chimandithandiza kugonjetsa ziyeso zimenezi, chimene chimandipatsa chilakiko pa ziyeso zimenezi. Ndipo ngati ndilibe mawu a Mulungu, ndiye kuti ndithudi sindingathe kukhala ndi chigonjetso.
Sindilinso pa chitetezo, ndikumva kukhala wopanda mphamvu ndikaona tchimo langa. Ngakhale kuti Satana amabwera ndi milandu, ndaona kuti alibenso malo m'maganizo mwanga, ndipo kwenikweni pafupifupi sabweranso nawo. Ndaona kuti ndi wabodza. Inde, ndili ndi chikhalidwe chochimwa chomwe palibe moyo wabwino, monga momwe timawerengera mu Aroma (Mutu 7:18). Ngakhale kuti ndayesedwa kapena mwina ndagwa, malingaliro a Mulungu kwa ine ndiwo kundipatsa tsogolo lodzala ndi chiyembekezo. Sindiyenera kukhala wokhumudwa komanso wopanda chiyembekezo, chifukwa ndikhoza kupempha chikhululukiro ndikubwerera pomwepo, ndikupemphera ndikukhulupirira kuti zidzapambana nthawi yotsatira. Ngati ndidzisunga pafupi ndi Mulungu ndi kudzaza ndekha ndi mawu Ake kuti ndikhale ndi chinachake cholimbana nacho, ndiye kuti Mulungu akulonjeza kuti ndidzapeza chigonjetso.
Ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kulimbana mwachangu ndi uchimo wanga mwa kuthera nthawi yanga bwino, kufunafuna chifuniro cha Mulungu ndi kuyang'ana ndi kupemphera makamaka m'maganizo mwanga. Ndikabwera m'mikhalidwe ndipo Mzimu umandisonyeza zambiri za tchimo mu chikhalidwe changa chaumunthu, ndikhoza kudzisunga ndekha pafupi ndi Iye, mwa kumvera mawu Ake ndi kusunga mtima wanga woyera. Mwa kuchita zimenezi ndimalandira nyonga kuchokera kwa Mulungu kuti ndigonjetse woimbidwa mlanduyo.