Ndinabadwa ndi chikhalidwe chosaleza mtima kwambiri. Ndinkafuna kuti anthu amvetsere nthawi yomweyo chilichonse chimene ndinkanena. Sindinkasamala kwenikweni za zosowa za ena, koma zanga zokha.
Ngakhale zinthu zazing’ono zinkandipangitsa kusaleza mtima: anthu sankamvera nthawi zonse zimene ndinkanena. Anthu sankatsatira malangizo. Anthu sankachita mbali yawo mu ntchito za pagulu. Mzere m’sitolo unali wautali kwambiri. Wolandira ndalama ankatenga nthawi yaitali kwambiri.
Ndinkakwiya makamaka ndi abale ndi alongo anga. Kukwiya kumeneko kunasanduka mkwiyo mwamsanga, ndipo posakhalitsa ndinayamba kufuula ndi kukuwa. Ndikayesa “kudziletsa,” zinkangomangika mkati mwanga mpaka ndinaphulika ndi kufuula ndi kukwiya kwambiri.
Ndinkafunika thandizo kuti ndisinthe
Pomaliza ndinafika pa mfundo yakuti ndinkakwiya ndi kusaleza mtima ngakhale pa zolakwa zazing’ono kwambiri zimene ena ankachita. Koma ndinali nditatopa kwambiri ndi kukwiyira ena. Ndinkafunadi kuchotsa mkwiyo ndi kukhumudwa konseko ndi kukhala ndi chikondi chenicheni ndi chisamaliro kwa anthu ena.
Pali vesi pa Yakobo 1:4 limene limati, “Chipiliro chiyenera kugwira ntchito yake kuti mukhale okhwima ndi angwiro, osasowa kanthu kalikonse.” Vesili linandithandiza kuzindikira kuti cholinga changa m’moyo monga wophunzira wa Yesu Khristu ndi kukhala wangwiro monga Iye ali wangwiro. (Mateyu 5:48). Malinga ndi vesili, kuleza mtima kudzandithandiza kukhala wangwiro, ndipo zimenezi ndi zimene ndikufuna kukhala!
Ndinayamba kuona kusaleza mtima kwanga ngati nkhondo yeniyeni, kumene cholinga chomaliza chinali kupeza kuleza mtima. Koma posakhalitsa ndinazindikira kuti kulimbana ndi kusaleza mtima chinali chinthu chimene sindikanatha kuchita ndekha. Ndinkafunika chida chenicheni choti ndigwiritse ntchito ndikayesedwa kukhala wosaleza mtima ndi wokwiya, ndipo palibenso chida chabwino kuposa lupanga la Mawu a Mulungu? (Aefeso 6:17).
Kukhala ndi cholinga chokhala angwiro monga Atate wathu wakumwamba ali wangwiro kungamveke ngati kosatheka, ndipo nthawi zambiri ndinkayesedwa kukayikira ngati ndingagonjetse kusaleza mtima kumeneku mwa ine ndekha ndi kukhala woleza mtima kwenikweni. Koma vesi la Mateyu 11:30 landithandiza pa maphunziro anga a moyo wonse monga wophunzira wa Khristu. “Pakuti goli langa ndi losavuta, ndipo katundu wanga ndi wopepuka,” zalembedwa pamenepo. Vesi limeneli linakhala chida changa cholimbana ndi zokhumudwitsa zonse ndi kukayikira kumene ndinkayesedwa nako kwambiri.
Kukhala munthu wosinthika
Ndikufunadi kukhala chitsanzo kwa ena, ndi kusonyeza kukoma mtima kwenikweni kwa iwo, osati mkwiyo ndi kusaleza mtima. Ndimakumbukiranso nthawi zambiri vesi lakuti, “Chikondi n'choleza mtima, chikondi n'chokoma mtima ...” 1 Akorinto 13:4. Vesi limeneli silimangonena za chikondi kwa munthu amene ndi wofunika kwa ine; ndingasonyeze chikondi chenicheni ndi chisamaliro kwa aliyense: abale ndi alongo anga, anthu kusukulu kapena kuntchito, ngakhale wogulitsa wochedwa wa m’sitolo!
Chimodzi mwa mawu amene ndimawakonda kwambiri ndi akuti, “Mwina ndinu Baibulo lokhalo limene anthu ozungulira inu akuwerenga.” Ndimaganizira mawu amenewa kwambiri nyengo zosiyanasiyana. Ndine wophunzira wa Yesu Khristu, ndipo ngati sindileza mtima, mwachitsanzo, kodi zimenezo zimasonyeza ena mmene moyo wa wophunzira uyenera kukhalira? Ayi, ndithudi! Ngati ndilimbana mozindikira ndi chiyeso chimenechi chosaleza mtima, pamenepo ena angathe kuona kuti moyo wogonjetsa ndi wotheka!
Ndimayesedwabe kukhala wosaleza mtima, koma sindiyenera kugonjera maganizo amenewo ndi kukwiyira ena. (Aroma 8:12). Ndikudziwa kuti ndapita patsogolo pa mbali imeneyi chifukwa ndingathe kuyang’ana m’mbuyo pa moyo umene ndakhala ndikukhala mpaka pano ndikudziwa kuti sindilinso munthu wosaleza mtima amene ndinali kale. Ndikhoza ngakhale kuyembekezera zochitika zikubwera zimene zidzayesa kuleza mtima kwanga, kuti ndikhale munthu wamphamvu ndi wachimwemwe kwambiri.
Werengani zambiri za mmene tingagonjetsere tchimo.