Ndine mayi wa ana atatu otanganidwa kwambiri komanso mwana wamng'ono.
Tsiku lina ndinaima ndikulira pa sinki ya khitchini pamene ndinali kutsuka mbale. Ndinaganiza ndekha kuti ngati wina andiuzanso kuti ana ndi dalitso, ndidzawauza mwachindunji kuti sindikuvomereza. Ndinaganiza za mmene Yesu anabwera padziko lapansi kudzandimasula, koma sindinamve kukhala womasuka. Chilichonse chinamveka cholemera ndi mdima.
Kodi nzeru inali kuti?
Ndinkatsimikiza kuti ndikuchita zonse bwino. Ndinapemphera m'mawa, ndinali kulankhula ndi Yesu nthawi yonse masana, kumupempha Iye kuti andipatse nzeru kuti m'nyumba mwathu mukhale mtendere ndi kuti ndikhale mayi wabwino komanso wosangalala. Ndinayesa zonse! Ndinayesa kupereka mphoto kwa anawo kuti ndiwalimbikitse kuti azichita zinthu ndipo ndinakhazikitsa njira zochitira ntchito zapakhomo mofulumira kuti ndikhale nawo nthawi yambiri. Zinagwira ntchito kwa kanthawi, koma zinali zovuta kutsatira ndiyeno zonse zikanangogwa kachiwiri.
Ndinkadzuka m'mawa ndikuganiza momwe tsikulo liingakhalire lowopsya -kunena kuti Ayi kwa ana m'mawa, masana ndi usiku, mbale zounjikana - mwana wofuula ndi ana atatu omwe amachititsa chisokonezo.
Sindinathe kusiya zonse. Kodi Mulungu anafunadi kuti ndikhale ndi nyumba yonyansa ndi ana opanda ulemu amene anachita monga momwe anafunira, ndipo m'malo mwake Iye akandipatsa mtendere? Kodi kusiya zonse kunatanthauzanji?
Pamene ndinapempha kwambiri nzeru, m'pamenenso ndinalingalira kwambiri kuti sindinali kulandira kanthu kuchokera kwa Mulungu. Ndinayesetsa kukhala wodekha ndi wotsimikiza, kupempha nzeru kuti ndithetse ndewu pakati pa ana ndi kutonthoza khanda lolira, koma pamapeto pake aliyense angakhale wosasangalala, koposa zonse ndekha.
Chinthu chimene ndinafunikiradi kukhala womasuka
Ndiyeno tsiku lina madzulo, ndinali nditakhala pansi kuti ndimwe khofi pambuyo pogoneka anawo. Linali tsiku lina lovuta ndipo pamene mwanayo anadzuka akulira, ndinali pafupi kulira. Ndinali nditakhuta! Ndinapita kwa iye ndi mtima wolemera, ndikuganiza kuti sindingapitirize motere kwa tsiku lina! Ndinayang'ana m'mwamba ndi kupempha Mulungu kuti andimasule ku chilichonse chimene chinali kundimangirira. Kodi chimenecho sichinali chifukwa chimene Yesu anabwera padziko lapansi - kundimasula ku zonse zomwe zinali zolemera kwambiri?
Ndiyeno mwadzidzidzi ndinamvetsetsa chinachake. Ndinamuuza Iye kuti Sanafunikire kundipatsa nzeru za momwe ndingalowetse mwanayo mu ndondomeko yabwino kapena momwe ndingalangire ana anga, zonse zomwe ndinkafuna zinali kumasulidwa ku chikhalidwe changa chochimwa ndi zipolowe zake zonse. Vesi lina linandikumbutsa madzulo amenewo kuti: "Funani ufumu wa Mulungu choyamba ndi zimene Mulungu akufuna. Pamenepo zosowa zanu zina zonse zidzakwaniritsidwanso." —Mateyu 6:33 (NCV).
Poyamba, sindinkaganiza zambiri za vesi. Sindinali kwenikweni pambuyo pa china chilichonse m'moyo - sindinali pambuyo pa ndalama zambiri, ulemu kapena chilichonse chomwe dziko lingandipatse. Ndinakhutira ndi kukhala mayi wokhala kunyumba. Ndinayesa kupukuta vesilo pambali, ndikuganiza kuti silinagwire ntchito pa mikhalidwe yanga, koma linakhalabe m'maganizo mwanga.
Tsiku lotsatira m'mawa ndinakhalanso ndi mwana wosasangalala, ndikuyesera kuti agone, pamene mwana wanga wamwamuna wamkulu analowa m'chipindamo akulira chifukwa chakuti anadzivulaza ndipo panthaŵi imodzimodziyo mwana wanga wamkazi anali kukoka tsitsi langa kufuna chakudya china.
Mwadzidzidzi zinandigunda! "Funani choyamba ufumu Wake ..." Ndinaganiza Yesu ataima pamaso panga pamene ine ndinafunsa Iye zimene chifuniro Chake chinali kwa ine pompano. Zinali ngati kuti ndikumva bwino mawu Ake akunena kuti, "Chifuniro changa kwa inu ndicho kusakhazika mtima pansi chisokonezochi. Chifuniro changa n'chakuti mulimbane ndi malingaliro oleza mtima ochokera ku uchimo wanu ndi kusagonja ku malingaliro a mantha ndi kutaya mtima."
Ndipo ndi zimene ndinachita pomwepo ndi pamenepo. Ndinalimbana ndi malingaliro onsewo ochokera ku chibadwa changa chaumunthu, ndipo Mulungu anachita zina zonse. Zinali ngati kuti mkhalidwe wonsewo unathetsedwa ndipo zonse zinali zabata ndi zamtendere. Ndinadzimva bwino kwambiri. Ndinafunafuna ufumu wa Mulungu ndi zimene Iye anafuna choyamba, ndipo chotero Iye anasunga lonjezo Lake ndi kuchita zonse zimene sindinathe kuusamalira.
Kugonjetsa muzu wa vuto
Sikuti Mulungu amafuna kuti ndizingovomereza chisokonezo chondizungulira ndi kukhala m'nyumba yopanda maphunziro yokhala ndi ana opanda ulemu, osamvera. Iye ali kumeneko ndi nzeru ndi chithandizo, ndipo ndikukhulupirira mwamphamvu kuti Iye akupanga chinachake chatsopano mwa ine mwa kundisonyeza tchimo mu chikhalidwe changa chaumunthu mu mkhalidwe uliwonse kuti ndithe kuligonjetsa.
Pamene ndikupempha kwambiri Mulungu kuti andisonyeze zifukwa zenizeni za chipwirikiti changa, ndikupempherera chidani chachikulu pa kusayamika, kufuna kukopa anthu, kuda nkhawa, mkwiyo, kusakhutira ndi kuimba mlandu ena, m'pamenenso Iye amaonetsetsa kuti zonse zomwe ziyenera kuchitidwa tsikulo, zikuchitika. Amandipatsanso nzeru za momwe ndingachitire ndi ana ndipo zimayambitsa mtendere ndi mkhalidwe wodalitsika.
M'malo moyesa kulamulira mikhalidwe yanga kuti ikhale yabwino kwa ine ndekha, ndaphunzira kugonjetsa muzu wa vutoli - tchimo mu chikhalidwe changa. Nditaphunzira kulimbana ndi zinthu zimenezi, zinthu zina zonse zinayambanso kuchita bwino!