Linali tsiku lalitali, lovuta. Ndinapita n'kukhala pa sofa n'kumaganiza kuti, "Umu si mmene moyo uyenera kukhalira!"
Tsiku lonse linali litamveka ngati chisokonezo chachikulu. Ndinali nditakwiya ndi kusasangalala ndi pafupifupi chilichonse chimene chinachitika masana. Panali zipolowe zambiri zomwe zinali kubwera mkati mwanga pamene sindinathe kusunga nyumba, munda, galimoto ndi ana mopanda banga. Nthaŵi iriyonse pamene chinachake chinapita mosiyana ndi zimene ndinakonzekera tsikulo, zinthu zinangokhala zamdima ndi zokhumudwitsa kwa ine.
Ndinayesa kulimbana ndi mkwiyo wonse ndi kukwiya kumene kunabwera mwa ine, koma kunali kovuta kwambiri ndi kopambanitsa. Zinaonekeratu kwa ine kuti mmene zinthu zikuyendera ndi ine sizinali mmene ziyenera kukhalira kwa munthu amene ali wophunzira wa mtima wonse wa Yesu Kristu.
Kudzimva wosimidwa
Ndinalingalira za mmene kukakhala kuima maso ndi maso ndi Yesu, ndi mmene zikanamvera ngati ndikakumana ndi Iye pakali pano. Ndiyeno mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira kuti nthaŵi yonseyi ndinali nditangoganizira zinthu za padziko lapansi. Zotsatira zake, zinali zosatheka kukana zipolowe zonse zomwe zinakwera mkati mwanga pamene zinthu sizinayende njira yanga.
Ndinaona zimenezi, koma sindinadziwebe kumene ndingayambe kupeza njira yanga yotulukira m'chisokonezo chimene ndinali. Sindinadziwe chomwe ndiyenera kusiya kapena momwe ndingasinthire. Inali itafika pamene ndinali kugwira mwamphamvu zinthu zonse za padziko lapansi kotero kuti ndinalibe pafupifupi moyo wa pemphero ndi Mulungu. Sanathenso kulankhula nane. Komabe, ndinathedwa nzeru kwambiri moti ndinaweramitsa mutu wanga pamene ndinakhala pamenepo ndi kufunsa Mulungu zimene ndiyenera kuchita kuti ndituluke mumdima umenewu moti ndinaona kuti zandiyamwa.
Chochitika chosintha moyo
Patapita nthawi, mwana wathu wamwamuna wamng'ono anachita ngozi yaikulu kwambiri. Madokotala anafunikira kumusunga m'chikomokere kwa masiku angapo. Chinthu chokha chimene ndinachita chinali kudikira. M'nthaŵi ya mantha yoteroyo, zinthu zonse za padziko lapansi mwadzidzidzi sizikutanthauza kanthu kalikonse.
Ndikukumbukira kuti ndinakhala ndekha m'chipinda china cha m'chipatala, ndipo nditataya mtima, ndinatembenukira kwa Mulungu. Pamenepo ndi pamene Iye akanatha kuyamba kulankhula nane. Mwadzidzidzi ndinamva kuti ndinali ndi mgwirizano wotseguka kwambiri ndi Mulungu ndipo ndinkatha kumva bwino zomwe Iye anandiuza. Nthaŵi yonse imene ndinakhala pamenepo m'chipatala, ndinali kukambitsirana ndi Mulungu nthaŵi zonse.
Iye akanatha kufotokoza zinthu m'moyo wanga zomwe sizinali monga momwe Iye ankafunira, ndi zinthu zomwe ndinafunikira kuzisiya. Iye anali wokhoza kundisonyeza zinthu zimene sindikanaziwona m'mikhalidwe yabwinobwino, chifukwa chakuti maganizo anga anali atakhazikika kwambiri pa zinthu zambiri za padziko lapansi ndi mikhalidwe.
Pa nthawi imeneyi, ndinakhala pa ubwenzi wolimba kwambiri ndi Mulungu. M'kupita kwa nthawi ndipo zinthu zinabwerera ku "zabwinobwino", ndinapanga chisankho cholimba cholimbana ndi mphamvu zanga zonse kuti ndisunge mgwirizano womwe ndinalandira ndi Mulungu. Popanda kugwirizana kotseguka kumeneku, ndinadziwa kuti ndidzachedwa kumva zomwe Iye akunena, ndipo zinthu za padziko lapansi ndi zochitika zidzayamba kutenga maganizo anga ndi malingaliro kachiwiri.
Mwana wathu wamwamuna anafunikira kuchitidwa maopaleshoni angapo pambuyo pa ngoziyo ndipo akufunikirabe ena angapo, koma iye ndi mnyamata wachimwemwe kwambiri, wamoyo yemwe saopa madokotala ndi zipatala. Pa nthawi yonseyi, ineyo sindinkaona kuti zinthu zinali zovuta kwambiri kapena kuti Mulungu wandisiya. Iye wakhala ndi ine kupyola chirichonse, kundithandiza ndi kupanga chikhulupiriro changa kukhala cholimba mwa kusamalira chirichonse, ngakhale ku tsatanetsatane waung'ono. Ndidzakhala pafupi ndi Iye mu zinthu zonse. Umu ndi mmene moyo uyenera kukhalira!