Alta ali ndi moyo wotanganidwa, ndipo ndi moyo wathunthu komanso wokhutiritsa. Koma pa nthawi ina m'moyo wake, pamene ana ake anali kukula, anazindikira kuti sanali wosangalala. Iye ankakwiya komanso kukhumudwa nthawi zonse. Anazindikira kuti vuto lake linali lakuti nthawi zonse ankakhumudwa ndi chilichonse - anakhumudwa ndi momwe anthu amamuchitira, kukhumudwa pamene sanaitanidwe ku zinthu, kukhumudwa ndi momwe anthu amachitira ndi ana ake, ndi zina zotero. Iye anadziŵa kuti ichi chinali chochititsa kupanda chimwemwe kwake, koma zinatenga kanthaŵi kuti iye afikedi pa chochititsa chenicheni cha vutolo. Poyamba, iye anaganiza kuti anali anthu omuzungulira amene ayenera kusintha, kuti vuto linali iwo, osati iye.
Koma pamene ankaganiza choncho, palibe chimene chinasintha ndipo pamapeto pake anafika poti anatopa kwambiri ndi kukhala wosasangalala nthawi zonse. Nthaŵi zonse ankakwiya ndi kukhumudwa ndi chinachake. Iye anafuulira Mulungu kuti amuonetse zimene anafunikira kuchita kuti adzimasule ku zimene zinamvuta kwambiri.
Chifukwa cha kusoŵa kwake, ndi kudzichepetsa kwake m'kupempha thandizo kwa Mulungu, Iye anakhoza kumsonyeza chowonadi. Imeneyo inali sitepe loyamba panjira yopuma, chimwemwe, ndi ufulu.
Kupeza njira yothetsera vutoli
"Ndinapeza kuti chifukwa chenicheni chomwe ndimakhumudwitsidwa chinali m'zinthu zina zambiri," akutero Alta. "Ndinali ndi malingaliro onyada, odzilungamitsa za ine ndekha, ndipo chifukwa cha zimenezo ndinkaganiza kuti ena ayenera kundichitira mosiyana, ndipo ayenera kuchita zinthu mosiyana. Ndipo nthawi zonse ndinkakhumudwa pamene sanachite zinthu monga momwe ndinkaganizira. Zonse zinabwera pansi pa vuto limodzi lalikulu: kunyada. Kunyada kumeneku kunachititsa miseche, kusaleza mtima, kukhala osakhululukira, ndi zinthu zina zambiri zoipa. Kunali kutali ndi kudzichepetsa komwe Baibulo limanena. (Mateyu 23:11-12, Afilipi 2:3, Yakobo 4:6.)
Nthawi yochitirapo kanthu
"Nditangoona zimenezi m'chilengedwe changa, ndinadziwa nthawi yomweyo kuti chinachake chikufunika kuchitidwa. Mulungu anandipatsa mavesi ena pa Aroma 12:10 ndi 16: 'Kukondana ngati abale ndi alongo. Patsani wina ndi mnzake ulemu wambiri kuposa momwe mukufunira nokha ... Khalani mwamtendere wina ndi mnzake. Musanyadire, koma pangani ubwenzi ndi anthu amene amaoneka ngati osafunika. Musaganize kuti ndinu wanzeru bwanji.'
"Ndinaona kuti kukhumudwa kunatanthauza kuti sindinkakonda ubale, ziwalo za thupi la Khristu kutchalitchi, zomwe zinaphatikizapo mwamuna wanga ndi ana ndi anzanga. Ndinali kupweteka maunansi anga ndi aliyense, ndipo inali nthaŵi ya kuleka kuimba mlandu zimenezo pa ena, ndi kutembenukira ku chisamaliro changa kwa ine ndekha. Ndinayamba kumvetsa kuti ngati ndakhumudwa ndi chilichonse, sindingathe kukonda nthawi imodzi. Nditayesedwa kuti ndikhumudwe ndi zinthu, ndinapemphera kwa Mulungu ndipo ndinalalikira mavesi amene Mulungu anandipatsa ndekha. 'Usakhala wanzeru m'maganizo mwako.' Chikhumbo changa chinali kukhala womvera kotheratu zimenezo.
"Maganizo anga anasintha, ndipo ndinayamba kudzigwira pa vesi ili: 'Chikondi n'choleza mtima komanso chokoma mtima. Chikondi sichichita nsanje, sichidzitama, ndipo sichinyadira. Chikondi sichiri chamwano, sichiri chadyera, ndipo sichimakwiyira ena. Chikondi sichiwerengera zolakwa zimene zachitika.' 1 Akorinto 13:4-5.
Nkhondo yokhala mfulu
"Kugonjera kuti mukhumudwe kuli ngati kutsegula chitseko cha malingaliro onse oipa, opanda chikondi. Ndiye ndikuganiza kuti ndine chinthu chapadera ndipo ndikufunikira chithandizo chapadera, ndiyeno ndimadzaza kwambiri ndekha moti ndilibe nthawi yocheza ndi ena, ndi zosowa zawo. Sindingathe kukhala ndi moyo wolemera mwa Mulungu pamene nthawi zonse ndimakhumudwa. Zalembedwa kuti Yesu anafuula kuti athandizidwe ndi kulira kwamphamvu ndi misozi, ndipo zimenezo zinandilimbikitsa kuchita chimodzimodzi. Kodi n'chiyani chimandipangitsa kuganiza kuti ndingathe kugonjetsa kukhumudwa popanda kuchita chimodzimodzi? Malingaliro anga a mmene zinthu ziyenera kukhalira ndi ozika mizu kwambiri m'chibadwa changa kotero kuti pamafunika nkhondo yeniyeni kuti ndiwagonjetse. Kwenikweni ndiyenera kupita ndi kufuula kwa Mulungu kaamba ka chisomo ndi chithandizo. Koma ndikakhala wodzichepetsa ndi kuchita zimenezo, ndiye kuti ndimakhala womasuka.
"Kugonjetsa m'dera lino kwandibweretsera mpumulo wambiri - mpumulo weniweni mumzimu wanga. Ndapeza chimwemwe chimene ndinali kusowa. Ndikhoza kukhala ndi chikondi choyera ndi chopanda dyera kwa banja langa ndi mabwenzi tsopano. Cholinga changa ndi kusiya zonse za ine ndekha ndi kusunga chikondi changa cholimba ndi kukula kwambiri tsiku lililonse.
"Sindinathe kwathunthu; Ine ndidakali woyesedwa, koma sindilolanso Satana kulamulira malingaliro anga. Ndimafuula kwa Mulungu n'kunena kuti, 'Mulungu andithandize! Mukudziwa kuti sindikufuna kukhumudwa,' ndiyeno ndimayang'ana njira zimene ndingayamikire zinthu m'malo mwake. Mukhoza kutembenuza kwathunthu. Zinthu zimabwera ndipo ndimaganiza kuti, 'Kodi akanandichitira bwanji zimenezo?' Koma kenako ndimaganiza kuti, 'Ayi! Sindifunikira kukhumudwa.' Ndine munthu wosangalala kwambiri komanso woyamikira kwambiri tsopano kuposa mmene ndinaliri ngakhale zaka ziwiri, zitatu zapitazo. Gwira nchito. Zimagwiradi ntchito."
"Ndipo ndikutsimikiza kuti Mulungu, amene anayamba ntchito yabwino mkati mwa inu, adzapitiriza ntchito yake mpaka potsirizira pake itatha pa tsiku limene Khristu Yesu adzabweranso." Afilipi 1:6.