"Ngakhale mutakhala kuti kapena muli ndani, mukhoza kukhala wosangalala kwambiri," akutero Nadya.
Nadya ndi munthu wabata komanso womasuka amene samadzichititsa chidwi. Koma pali chikondi ndi chikondi chochokera kwa iye, ndipo ndikufuna kudziwa kumene chimachokera.
Anakulira m'tauni yaing'ono ndipo anali ndi ubwana wabwino komanso wotetezeka pamodzi ndi makolo ake ndi alongo ake awiri. Nadya ankachita bwino kusukulu ndipo ankachita zinthu zosiyanasiyana.
Koma pamene anali wachinyamata, Nadya anayamba kumva anthu akudandaula za khalidwe lake. Iwo anali kunena kuti anali munthu wokwiya kwambiri. Ndipo zinali zoona. Kunyumba, nthawi iliyonse mayi ake akamupempha kuti achite chilichonse, choyamba chimene anachita ali wachinyamata chinali chakuti, "N'chifukwa chiyani ndiyenera kuchita zimenezo?" Ndipo kusukulu, nthaŵi zonse ankafuna kukhala wolondola, ndipo ankakangana nthaŵi ndi nthaŵi kufikira atapeza zimene akufuna.
Madzulo, nthaŵi zambiri ankapita kukaona agogo ake achikristu. Nadya sanakulire ndi Chikhristu, koma ankakonda kumvetsera agogo ake aakazi akufotokoza nkhani za m'Baibulo.
"Zinali ngati kuyang'ana m'dziko lina - dziko lomwe linali losiyana kotheratu ndi dziko limene ndinkakhalamo komanso kumene zonse zinali zochokera ku malingaliro a anthu.
Nkhani yonena za Yosefe inali yosangalatsa kwambiri kwa ine. Anagulitsidwa ngati kapolo ku Iguputo ndipo anaponyedwa m'ndende; koma anapezabe mphamvu kuchokera kwa Mulungu kuti akhale wosangalala ndi woyamikira."
Kusintha kwa zinthu
Nadya anaona kuti panali kusiyana kwakukulu pakati pa miyoyo ya ngwazi za chikhulupiriro m'Baibulo ndi moyo wake. Pamene anali ndi zaka 15, anasintha zinthu zimene zidzasintha moyo wake mpaka kalekale. Iye anali atakula osakhulupirira Mulungu, koma vesi lalifupi, losavuta limene agogo ake anamŵerengera kuchokera m'Baibulo linatsegula maso ake kuti Mulungu anali ndani. Vesi ili linali 1 Yohane 4:12 (CEB), "Palibe amene anaonapo Mulungu ..."
Mwadzidzidzi anazindikira kuti sangayembekezere kuona Mulungu ndi maso ake. Palibe amene anamuona. Munangoyenera kukhulupirira.
Kuyambira pamenepo kumka mtsogolo, iye anafuna kudziŵa zambiri monga momwe angathere ponena za Mawu a Mulungu. Ankawerenga Baibulo usana ndi usiku. "Zinali ngati madzi amoyo," iye akutero.
Anaona "Nadya wakale"
Patapita nthawi yochepa, anayamba kuonanso "Nadya wakale" ndi zilakolako zake zachilengedwe zauchimo ndi zizolowezi zakale.
Mawu a Mulungu anam'patsa mtima wofunitsitsa kutha ndi zonsezi. Sizinali zokwanira kwa iye kungolankhula pamene anamva mkwiyo wake ukukwera. Anafuna kukhala mfulu; wopanda dyera; anamaliza ndi zofuna zake zonse ndi kusakhutira mwa iye mwini.
Pamene anabatizidwa ali ndi zaka 16, m'busayo anamufunsa chifukwa chake anali Mkristu. Anamuuza kuti umboni wake ndi vesi la pa Yohane 14:15 lakuti, "Ngati mumandikonda, sungani malamulo anga." Iye ankakonda Yesu ndipo ankafuna kusunga malamulo Ake, amene ankawerenga kwambiri.
"Nditabatizidwa, ndinakhumudwa kwambiri. Mkhalidwe wanga wakale wokwiya unayamba kundivutitsa kwambiri. Tsopano ndinali Mkristu, koma sindinathebe kusintha. Ndinkafuna thandizo."
Chiyembekezo chatsopano
Nadya anamva nthawi zambiri kuti Yesu anafa pamtanda kuti machimo akhululukidwe. Koma zimenezi sizim'tonthozanso.
Patapita nthaŵi yochepa, Akristu ena a ku Brunstad Christian Church anapita kutchalitchi chake. Iye anawamva akuimba nyimbo ya m'buku la nyimbo limene anabweretsa imene inamupatsa chiyembekezo chatsopano.
"Pakati pa zinthu zina, ndinamva nyimbo yokhala ndi mawu akuti, 'Kwa akapolo a uchimo ndidzafulumira, Pakuti usiku ukuyandikira.' (*"Njira za Ambuye" #347) 'Izi ndi zimene ndikufuna,' ndinaganiza."
Mpaka tsiku limenelo anali atamva ngati "kapolo" wa uchimo, ngati kapolo wa mkwiyo wake, koma tsopano anaona mtanda ngati njira yotulukira mu mkwiyo wake - njira yokhalira womasuka ku mkwiyo umenewu. Ngakhale kuti Yesu anali wosalakwa kotheratu, Iye anafa pa mtanda pa Kalvari kotero kuti Iye akhululukire machimo athu.
"Koma ndinaonanso kuti mtanda unali woposa pamenepo. Yesu anati Ayi ku chifuniro Chake tsiku lililonse, m'mayesero onse amene Iye anafikapo. Iye anasankha kuchita chifuniro cha Mulungu nthaŵi zonse m'malo mwa Chifuniro Chake. Pa Luka 9:23 Iye akuitana izi kuti 'atenge mtanda wake tsiku ndi tsiku' – kalekale Iye asanapachikidwe pa Kalvari."
Iye tsopano anamvetsetsa kuti Yesu sanangonena kuti Ayi ku machimo akunja omwe Iye anayesedwa monga mawu okwiya, zochita zoipa, ndi zina zotero - Iye anatenga nkhondo yolimbana ndi zilakolako zonse zauchimo zamkati zomwe zinakhala mu chikhalidwe Chake chaumunthu - kudzisankhira kwake, kapena "tchimo m'thupi", monga momwe Baibulo limachitcha mu Aroma 8:3.
Pa tchimo la "mtanda wa tsiku ndi tsiku" limeneli linaikidwa pa "imfa" lisanakhale chikalata kapena kachitidwe. Yesu sanangofa pamtanda kuti atipatse chikhululukiro cha machimo athu, Iye anatipatsanso chitsanzo chimene tiyenera kutsatira. Mfundo yakuti Iye sanagonje pamene Iye anayesedwa kuti akhale wokwiya, wansanje, wokhumudwa, ndi zina zotero, anapatsa Nadya mwayi wochita zomwezo.
"Mawu a Paulo pa Agalatiya 2:20 anapeza tanthauzo latsopano lonse kwa ine," iye akutero. "Ndapachikidwa pamodzi ndi Khristu; salinso ine amene ndili ndi moyo, koma Khristu amakhala mwa ine."
Anakumana kuti mtanda umagwira ntchito
Zinthu zinayamba kusintha pa moyo wake. Iye akumwetulira pamene akuganiza kuti mayi ake anadabwa kwambiri pamene anapempha mwana wawo wamkazi wazaka 17 kuti athandize pa chinachake, ndipo anapeza yankho lakuti, "Ndithudi, ndingathe kuchita zimenezo," ngakhale amayi ake asanamalize kufunsa funsolo.
"Ndinakumana ndi kuti mtanda umagwira ntchito. Ndinkaganiza kuti ngati zikugwira ntchito m'zinthu zazing'ono, ndiye kuti zidzagwiranso ntchito ndikakumana ndi zinthu zazikulu," akutero akumwetulira kwambiri.
Chiyembekezo ndi chikhulupiriro cha mtsogolo
Zinali zotonthoza kwambiri kuona zimene akanatha kuzigonjetsa. Izi zinamupatsa chiyembekezo ndi chikhulupiriro cha mtsogolo - chikhulupiriro m'moyo womwe angasinthe kwambiri, tsiku limodzi pa nthawi. M'malo mokhala munthu wokwiya, wokwiya, angakhale wachimwemwe ndi woyamikira.
Atafunsidwa ngati akufunikirabe mtanda, akuyankha kuti sali wangwiro.
"Ndikufuna mtanda kuposa kale. Ngakhale kuti ndagonjetsa zinthu zambiri, Mulungu akupitirizabe kundisonyeza madera atsopano kumene ndikufuna mtanda, kumene ndikufunikira kugonjetsa. Pamenepo ndiyenera kupitiriza kunena kuti Ayi ku chifuniro changa, kuti zipatso za Mzimu monga kukoma mtima, ubwino etc. zikule kwambiri m'moyo wanga."
Iye amagwiritsa ntchito vesi la pa Aroma 14:17 (NLT) monga chitsogozo m'moyo wake, "Pakuti Ufumu wa Mulungu si nkhani ya zimene timadya kapena kumwa, koma kukhala ndi moyo wabwino ndi mtendere ndi chimwemwe mwa Mzimu Woyera." Pamene ali ndi mtendere ndi chimwemwe chimenechi mumtima mwake, amadziŵa kuti akutsatira chifuniro cha Mulungu.
Yambani m'mikhalidwe yaing'ono
Atafunsidwa ngati ali ndi malangizo alionse kwa owerenga omwe alibe chikhulupiriro m'moyo uno, iye akuti, "Khulupirirani Mulungu – osati momwe mumamvetsetsera zinthu nokha. Mulungu ndi wamphamvuyonse. Amatha kusintha zonse. Angasangalatse munthu wosasangalala. Ziribe kanthu kuti mumakhala kuti kapena muli ndani, mukhoza kukhala wosangalala kwambiri."
Ndi chinthu chimene wakumana nacho.
"Choyamba, tembenukirani kwa Mulungu. Muyenera kukhala wofunitsitsa kutumikira Mulungu ndi mtima wanu wonse. Yambani ndi zinthu zazing'ono kwambiri. Mukamachita zimenezi, mudzapeza kuti Mulungu ndi wokhulupirika. Iye amapangitsa kuti nthawi zonse mukhale osangalala komanso oyamikira, kaya malingaliro anu akwere kapena kutsika ndiponso mosasamala kanthu za mmene zinthu zilili pa moyo wanu."