Nthawi zonse ndinali "mwana wabwino" akukula. Koma pamene ndinkakula, ndinkaona kuti payenera kukhala cholinga chapamwamba m'moyo kuposa kungokhala "wabwino". Ndinamva ngati chinachake chikusowa, ndinali ndi kulakalaka kukhala bwino. Ndinkaona kuti moyo si ndalama zokha, kupambana, kudziwa zinthu, kapena kukhala wabwino kwambiri pa chilichonse chimene ndikuchita.
Ndinkafuna moyo umene uli woona
Ndili ndi zaka zoyambirira za m'ma 20, ndinkakumana ndi mavuto ena, koma ndinkagwiranso bwino ntchito yanga. Ndinapeza ngakhale mphoto chifukwa cha ntchito yanga, koma ndinaona kuti chinachake chikusowa.
Kunja ndinali kukhala ndi moyo wabwino koma chimene ndinkafunadi chinali moyo umene unali woona kwathunthu mkati, kumene palibe wina aliyense amene ankatha kuona. Ndinadziwa kuti ndilibe zimenezo. Kwenikweni, mkati mwake ndinali wopanikizika kwambiri ndi wodzala ndi nkhaŵa, ndipo ndinali ndi zofuna zambiri pa ena. Ndinakhala bwana ndi wovuta, ndipo ndinali wosasangalala kwambiri. Ndinkatha kuona mmene ndinkakhudzira anthu ena ndipo ndinkayesetsa kuchita bwino, koma mkati mwanga ndinkadzazabe ndi zofuna zonsezi zomwe zinandipangitsa kukhala wosasangalala.
Mwachibadwa ndimada nkhawa ndi kupsinjika maganizo mosavuta. Zinaonekeratu kwa ine kuti pamene ndinalola malingaliro ameneŵa a nkhaŵa ndi kupsinjika maganizo kundilamulira, ndinagonjanso ku zinthu zina monga kukwiya ndi kusaleza mtima ndi anthu ena. Ndinali kulola malingaliro a nkhaŵa ameneŵa kundilamulira, ndipo ndinaiŵala kuika chidaliro changa mwa Mulungu. Zinali kubwera pakati pa ine ndi chikhumbo changa cha kukhala wabwino kwa anthu. Ndinayesetsa momwe ndingathere, koma nthawi zonse ndinkamaliza kuchitapo kanthu m'njira yomwe ndinkadana ndi zomwe zinkandipangitsa kukhala wosakhazikika komanso wosasangalala.
Ndinadziŵa kuti panali njira imene zinthu zingakhalire zosiyana. Kutchalitchi ndinaona zitsanzo zabwino zambiri: anthu amene ndinkawadziwa anali m'mikhalidwe yovuta iwo eni koma anali adakali pa mpumulo ndi kukoma mtima ndi zabwino kwa ena. Ndinkaona ngati kuti ndi zitsanzo za mmene Yesu akanakhalira. Ndinafuna kukhala ndi zimenezo! Ndinafunanso kukhala wachifundo ndi kukhala wopumula m'mikhalidwe yanga.
Potsirizira pake ndinazindikira kuti sindingathe kusintha ndekha ndipo sindingakhale wosangalala kwenikweni mwa kungoyesa kukhala "wabwino" ndekha. Chimene ndinafunikiradi chinali kupempha thandizo kwa Mulungu.
Kuphunzira kupemphera
Ndinakumbutsidwa za nkhani imene Yesu ananena yonena za Mfarisi ndi wokhometsa msonkho. Mfarisiyo anaimirira pamene aliyense ankatha kumuona n'kunena kuti, "Zikomo Mulungu sindili ngati wokhometsa msonkho wosauka ameneyu pano." Koma wokhometsa msonkhoyo ankadziwa kuti akufunika thandizo lochokera kwa Mulungu, ndipo anapemphera kuti, "Mulungu, ndichitireni chifundo, wochimwa!" Mwinamwake sanathe ngakhale kufotokoza zimene anali kulakalaka kwenikweni. (Luka 18:9-14.) Umu ndi mmene ndamvera nthawi zambiri pa moyo wanga. Nthawi zambiri pemphero langa limangokhala kulira kwa mtima wanga, ngakhale kuti sindingathe kuika kulakalaka kumeneko m'mawu.
Koma ndikudziwa kuti Mulungu amamva mapemphero anga pamene kulakalaka kwanga kusintha kuli kwenikweni ndi koona, monga wokhometsa msonkho m'nkhaniyi. Ndiyenera kupita kwa Mulungu podziwa kuti sindingathe kugonjetsa ndekha, koma kuti ndikufunikira kwambiri thandizo Lake.
Polakalaka kusintha ndinaphunzira kupempheradi. Ndi pamene zinthu zinayamba kusintha. Pamene ndinasiya kuyesa kulamulira chirichonse ndekha ndi kuchipereka kwa Mulungu, ndi pamene ndinapeza mtendere. Ine ndikudziwa Mulungu amamva mapemphero anga ndipo ine ndikudziwa Iye amayankha iwo. Osati nthawi zonse m'njira yomwe ndikuyembekezera, koma Iye amandipatsa chisomo ndi mphamvu. Ndikuphunzira kuvomereza dongosolo la Mulungu la moyo wanga m'malo moyesa kukakamiza mapulani onse amene ndili nawo ndekha.
Chotero pemphero langa lakhala lakuti Mulungu adzandithandiza kugonjetsa zinthu zimenezi mkati monga nkhaŵa, kupsinjika maganizo, zofuna, ndiyeno zinthu zakunja zidzagweranso m'malo. Ndi chinthu chomwe ndikugwirabe ntchito; Ine sindiri pafupi kukhala wangwiro mu zinthu izi. Koma ndikudziwa kuti ndi thandizo la Mulungu, ndikukula. Sindikulamulidwanso ndi kupsinjika maganizo ndi nkhawa, ndipo ndikamaliza kwathunthu nawo, ichi chidzakhala chigonjetso changa chachikulu!
Paulo anafotokoza motere pa Afilipi 3:12, "Sindikutanthauza kuti ndili kale monga momwe Mulungu akufunira kuti ndikhale. Sindinakwaniritsebe cholinga chimenecho, koma ndikupitirizabe kuyesa kuchikwaniritsa ndi kuchipanga kukhala changa. Khristu amafuna kuti ndichite zimenezo, n'chifukwa chake anandipanga kukhala wake."
Ndikhoza kusintha!
Ndili ndi bizinesi yanga tsopano ndipo masiku akhoza kukhala otanganidwa kwambiri. Koma m'mikhalidwe yanga yonse, Mulungu akundiphunzitsa. Vesi lina limene nthawi zambiri limabwera kwa ine ndi lakuti, "Khalani chete ndipo dziwani kuti ndine Mulungu." Salimo 46:10. Ndaphunzira kuika chikhulupiriro changa chonse mwa Iye, kudziwa kuti Iye ali mu ulamuliro wonse. Ndikasankha kuika zonse m'manja mwa Mulungu, ngakhale zinthu zazing'ono kwambiri pamoyo wanga, ndiye kuti ndikhoza kuyamikira ndi kusangalala chifukwa cha ena komanso chifukwa cha mikhalidwe ndi mavuto a moyo.
Ndamvetsetsa kuti sindiyenera kungoyesa kukhala munthu wabwino, koma kuti nditha kusintha mkati; Ndikhoza kukhala ngati Yesu, amene anangosonyeza ubwino, chikondi, ndi chifundo mumkhalidwe uliwonse!
Moyo uli watanthauzo kwambiri tsopano. Tsopano ine ndikumvetsa kuti kulakalaka ndi kusowa kuti ndinamva mkati pamene ine ndinakula, anali Yesu Mwini kundiitana ine kukhala ngati Iye! Ndikudziwa kuti zimenezi n'zoona chifukwa kukhala ndi cholinga chimenechi kwandisangalatsa kwambiri.
Ndithudi, pali zinthu zina zomwe zimandipatsa chimwemwe monga nyimbo, maluwa, ndi zina zotero. Koma pamapeto pake, zinthu zonsezo zimangokhala zosakhalitsa. Chimwemwe chenicheni, chokhalitsa ndi mtendere zimachokera ku kukhala ndi unansi waumwini ndi Yesu ndi mwa kufunafuna zinthu zimene zili ndi phindu losatha.
"Abale ndi alongo okondedwa, mavuto a mtundu uliwonse akabwera, amaona kuti ndi mwayi wosangalala kwambiri. Pakuti mudziŵa kuti pamene chikhulupiriro chanu chiyesedwa, chipiriro chanu chimakhala ndi mwaŵi wa kukula. Choncho lolani kuti chikule, pakuti pamene chipiriro chanu chakula mokwanira, mudzakhala wangwiro ndi wathunthu, wopanda kanthu." Yakobo 1: 2-4.