Kufunitsitsa Mulungu kuyambira ali wamng'ono
Ndinaleredwa ndi makolo achikristu owongoka kwambiri ndipo ndinali ndi ubwana wabwino kwambiri. Pamene ndinaŵerenga Baibulo, ndinazindikira kukhalapo kwa Mulungu.
Pamene ndinali kukula, ndinafuna kumvetsetsa kwambiri Mawu a Mulungu. Ngakhale kuti ndinali Mkristu ndipo ndinkafunafuna Mulungu mmene ndingathere, ndinaona kuti chinachake chikusowa. Ndinamva chipwirikiti ndi kulemedwa ndi uchimo. Nthawi zonse ndinkamva kukhala wodetsedwa. Koma sindinapeze thandizo lililonse pa zimenezo. Nthaŵi iriyonse pamene ndinafunsa mafunso ponena za icho, ndinangokhala ndi malongosoledwe aatali, a zaumulungu m'malo mwa mayankho.
Zonse zinasintha mu 1990
Ndinali ndi zaka 13 pamene nkhondo inaulika m'dziko langa. Kwa zaka zitatu zinachitika kuzungulira mzinda wathu, koma panali kuukira kochepa chabe pafupi nafe. Panalibe chimene chinakhudza kwambiri.
Ndiyeno, tsiku lina m'mawa tinadzuka ndi mabomba akugwa kuchokera kumwamba. Asilikali okhala ndi nkhope zopaka utoto ndi mfuti anali kuthamanga m'makwalala, ndipo anthu anakakamizidwa kuchoka m'nyumba zawo. Kunali chipwirikiti. Nkhondoyo tsopano inali pafupi kwambiri.
Banja langa linathaŵira kumapiri kunja kwa tauni yathu ndi katundu wochepa amene tikananyamula. Tinathera masiku angapo kumeneko, tikuyang'ana pamene asilikali adani anali kutentha nyumba pambuyo pomanga. Zinali zoopsa.
Pamene ndinkayang'ana chiwonongekocho ndinapemphera kuti, "Wokondedwa Mulungu, ndikukana kukhulupirira kuti ichi ndi chifukwa chimene ndinabadwira. Palibe njira yomwe IZI ndi cholowa changa, ndipo palibe njira yomwe iyi ndi tsogolo langa. Sindikukhulupilira zimenezo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti mwandikonzera chinachake chabwino."
M'mphindi imeneyo, ndinaona kuti Mzimu wa Mulungu unandipatsa mphamvu, ndipo ndinadziŵa kuti ndikhoza kupitirizabe ndi kusamalira amayi anga apakati ndi mchimwene wanga wamng'ono.
Posapita nthaŵi bambo anga anaitanidwa m'gulu lankhondo ndipo atatufe tinali patokha. Tinathaŵira ku mzinda wotetezedwa. Ndinayamba kufufuza m'Baibulo kuti andithandize ndipo ndinayesetsa kumvetsa kuti chifuniro cha Mulungu chinali chiyani kwa ine m'chisokonezo chonsecho. Ndinakumana ndi nthaŵi zambiri pankhondo yonse kuti dzanja la Mulungu linali pa moyo wanga.
Kuyambiranso
Ngakhale kuti zinali zoopsa, bambo anga anapulumuka ndipo atabwerera tinasamukira kudziko lotetezeka, ndi chiyembekezo choyambiranso ndi kukhala ndi moyo wabwino. Kumeneko ndinakumana ndi mwamuna wina amene ndinkalankhula naye zinthu zimene sindinkazimvetsa m'Baibulo ndipo anandifotokozera. Ndipo kwa nthaŵi yoyamba, ndinamva kuti tingagonjetse uchimo. Makamaka Agalatiya 5:25 (NLT) analankhula nane kuti: "Popeza tikukhala ndi Mzimu, tiyeni titsatire chitsogozo cha Mzimu m'mbali iliyonse ya moyo wathu."
Tsiku lina, anandiitanira ku msonkhano wa achichepere Wachikristu ndi achichepere ena mazana ambiri.
Nditamva wokamba nkhani wamkulu, ndinadziŵa kuti chinali chowonadi. Zinali zoonekeratu kuti anakhala ndi moyo umene analankhula; sizinali chiphunzitso chabe. Zinali zoonekeratu kwa ine kuti munthu ameneyu ankakonda Mulungu ndi mtima wake wonse ndipo ndinapemphera kuti, "Wokondedwa Mulungu, umu ndi mmene ndikufunira kukhala ndi moyo. Ndikufuna kukhala nazo chonchi." Ndinazindikira kuti ndandipeza nyumba. Zinali ngati kuti katundu wamkulu wandilanda.
Munthu wosinthika
Pamene ndinali kufunafuna Mulungu ndi mtima wanga wonse, pang'onopang'ono ndinapeza mayankho a zinthu zimene ndinali kulimbana nazo kwa zaka zambiri. Pomalizira pake ndinaphunzira kuti kunali kotheka kumasuka ku mtolo wa uchimo ndi chidetso. Mzimu Woyera ukhoza kusonyeza machimo mu chikhalidwe changa chaumunthu, ndipo Iye anandipatsanso mphamvu kuti ndiwagonjetse. Ndinayamba kuŵerenga ndi kuŵerenga ndi kuŵerenga Baibulo. Ndinapeza chakudya chauzimu ndi nyonga imene ndinafunikira.
Ndinaphunziranso kuti mosasamala kanthu za mikhalidwe yanu, simungathe kupitiriza kuchimwa, muyenera kugonjetsa. Ziribe kanthu ngati muli m'dera la nkhondo kapena muli otanganidwa ndi moyo wa tsiku ndi tsiku wa ntchito, sukulu, kapena banja. Ndilibe zifukwa zapadera chifukwa cha zomwe ndinakumana nazo.
Limanena pa 1 Petulo 4:1 kuti, "Choncho, popeza Khristu anavutika chifukwa cha ife m'thupi, dzipangireni manja ndi maganizo amodzi, pakuti iye amene wavutika m'thupi waleka ku uchimo." "Thupi" ndi chikhalidwe chanu chaumunthu chochimwa, ndipo "kuvutika m'thupi" kumatanthauza kuti mumanena kuti Ayi ku chikhalidwe chanu chaumunthu chochimwa pamene mukuyesedwa. Vesi ili ndi chinthu chofunika kugwiritsitsa. Khulupirirani vesi limenelo! M'mawa mukadzuka, dzipangireni mkono ndi maganizo ofanana ndi a Yesu, ndipo zimenezo zikutanthauza kudziuza kuti, "M'malo mwake ndidzavutika kusiyana ndi kugonjera ku uchimo." Kwenikweni ndi kuvutika koma a mumapeza zotsatira zazikulu. Mudzakhala olimba mwa Ambuye.
Chifukwa cha nkhondo, ndinali ndi nkhani zambiri za mantha ndi mavuto amene ndinayenera kuthana nawo. Manja anga anali ogwedezeka ndipo sindinali wotsimikiza za zinthu zambiri. Ndinkalota maloto oipa ndipo ndinkagaya mano pafupifupi usiku uliwonse.
Koma ndinakumana ndi chozizwitsa pamene Mzimu wa Mulungu ndi Mawu a Mulungu anabwera mumtima mwanga. Zinthu zonsezi zinandilanda. Ndinalibenso mantha; kugwedezeka konse kumeneko kunachotsedwa. Sindinakhalepo ndi maloto oopsa pambuyo pake, ndipo pakhala zaka 21 kuchokera masiku amenewo tsopano.
Mawu a Mulungu ndi oona
Ngakhale kuti anthu ambiri amene anakumanapo ndi nkhondo angakwiye mosavuta, ndi kuyamba kukayikira Mulungu, ndinayamba kuona kuti Mawu a Mulungu ndi oona ndipo amagwira ntchito. Ndinafunikira chinachake chondithandiza ndi kunditsogolera kwa Mulungu. Mosasamala kanthu za zimene ndinachita, ndinamva kukhala wopanda pake. Koma pamene ndinaŵerenga Baibulo, ndinapeza mtendere ndi chithandizo, ndipo m'mikhalidwe yovuta, nthaŵi zonse ndinkatembenukira ku Baibulo kaamba ka thandizo. Chinali chinthu chokha chimene chikanabweretsa mtendere.
M'kupita kwa nthaŵi, ndinakumana ndi kuti Mulungu anali wabwino, ndipo pamene ndinakumana nazo kwambiri, m'pamenenso ndinkakhulupirira kwambiri. Mulungu anakhala weniweni kwa ine. Iye amatiyang'anira, Iye ali pambali pathu kuti atiteteze. (Salimo 121:5.) Timakumana nazo kuti ngati "tikuvutika m'thupi", ngati titi Ayi ku zomwe zimachokera ku chikhalidwe chathu chaumunthu, timasiya kuchimwa. (1 Petro 4:1-2.) Timakhala olimba m'chikhulupiriro ndi chiyembekezo, ndipo moyo umakhala wosangalatsa!
Sindingathe kubwerera tsopano ndi kukhala womvetsa chisoni zakale zanga, chifukwa ndakumana kuti Mulungu ndi woona, ndipo Iye wakonza mwangwiro mikhalidwe yanga. Anthu ambiri lerolino amalingalira kuti sali kulikonse, koma pamene muli a Yesu ndi ufumu wakumwamba, pamenepo mumakhala ndi chimwemwe, chiyembekezo, ndi mtendere! Ziribe kanthu momwe zinthu zokuzungulirani zilili, Mulungu akugwira ntchito ndipo Iye ndi woona. Iye ndi Mulungu wachikondi ndi wosamala, ndipo mukufunadi kumutumikira ndi zonse zimene muli nazo.
Ndikutamanda Mulungu chifukwa cha zonse zimene Iye wachita mosamala kwambiri kuti andibweretse kumalo ano m'moyo kumene ndili tsopano. Iye wakhala wachifundo kwambiri kwa ine; palibe mawu ofotokoza mmene Mulungu wakhalira wabwino kwa ine.
Ndipo ndikhoza kuchitira umboni monga momwe Paulo pa Afilipi 3:12-14 (CEV),"Sindinakwaniritsebe cholinga changa, ndipo sindili wangwiro. Koma Khristu wandigwira. Choncho ndimapitirizabe kuthamanga."