Linali Lolemba m'mawa ndipo ndinali nditabwera kunyumba nditatengera ana akuluakulu kusukulu. Ndinali kumva kukhala wotsika pang'ono pamene ndinaloŵa m'nyumba ndi ana aang'ono. Sizinali chifukwa chakuti inali Lolemba, ndipo sizinali chifukwa chakuti panali katundu wamkulu wa zovala zomwe zinafunikira kutsukidwa. Zinali zokhumudwitsa kwambiri mwa ine ndekha, ndipo sizinali zosangalatsa kwambiri ngakhale pang'ono.
Tsiku linali litayamba bwino. koma zimenezo zinasintha mofulumira. Anawo anali ovuta kuyambira pachiyambi — kumenyana, kusamvetsera, ndi kuseŵera m'malo mokonzekera kupita kusukulu. Kwenikweni, kuyang'ana kumbuyo, sizinali ngakhale zoipa. Iwo ankangochita zimene ana amachita. Koma sindinathe kuchita nazo. Ndinakwiya kwambiri. Nkhondoyo sinaime panjira yopita kusukulu. Potsirizira pake, sindinathe kupiriranso ndipo ndinakalipira anawo. Nkhondoyo inaima ndipo ndinalankhula nawo za mmene ayenera kukhalira osati kukwiyirana.
Mwana wanga wamwamuna wa zaka zisanu ndi zitatu anandimvetsera kenako n'kunena kuti, "Koma wakwiya ."
Khalani chitsanzo kwa okhulupirira
Tsopano ndinali panyumba, ndipo mawu amenewo anali kulira mokweza m'makutu mwanga. Zinali zoona kwambiri, ndipo n'chifukwa chake ndinamva bwino kwambiri. Umu si mmene ndinkafunira. Kodi ndingathandize bwanji ana anga kusankha bwino pa moyo wanga pamene ineyo sindinali ngakhale kukhala ndi moyo zimene ndinanena?
Ndinali nditakhala kutchalitchi tsiku lomwelo ndipo mmodzi wa okamba nkhani anali atawerenga vesi la pa 1 Timoteyo 4:12, "Musalole aliyense kuganiza pang'ono za inu chifukwa ndinu wamng'ono. Khalani chitsanzo kwa okhulupirira onse pa zimene mukunena, mmene mumakhalira, m'chikondi chanu, chikhulupiriro chanu, ndi chiyero chanu." "Kodi okhulupirira ndani?" wokamba nkhaniyi anali atafunsa. "Ndi amene timakhala nawo nthawi zonse—ana athu, anzathu okwatirana, mabanja athu. Kodi ndife chitsanzo kwa iwo?" Ndinazindikira kuti apa ndi pamene ndinali kusowa kwenikweni.
Zinali zosavuta kukhala "wabwino" ndi kuchita zinthu m'njira ya "Mkhristu" pamene ndinali kutchalitchi kapena kusukulu ndi makolo ena. N'chifukwa chiyani zinali zovuta kwambiri kunyumba ndi anthu amene ndinkawakonda? Ndinazindikira kuti pamene ndinali pafupi ndi anthu ena, ndinali kukhala ndi moyo wabwino wakunja, koma mkati mwake palibe zambiri zimene zinasintha. Zonse zomwe ndinali kuchita pamaso pa ena zinali kupondereza malingaliro anga.
Koma kunyumba, kumene sindinali maso monga momwe ndiyenera kukhalira, ndipo osati monga kuda nkhaŵa ndi zimene anthu ena ankandiganizira, ndinangolola malingaliro anga a kukwiya ndi kusaleza mtima kutuluka m'mawu anga ndi zochita zanga kwa amene ndinawakonda. Ndinazindikira kuti muzu wa vutolo unali mkwiyo ndi kukwiya mkati mwanga, m'malingaliro anga, ndipo ndinafunikira kuchitapo kanthu pa zimenezo! Imeneyo ndiyo njira yokhayo imene zinthu zinali kudzasinthira!
Kugwiritsa Ntchito Mawu a Mulungu m'mikhalidwe yanga
Zinali ngati kuti kuunika kwandipitirira. Sindinakondwere ndi mmene ndinkachitira zinthu, koma ndinasangalala kuti pomalizira pake ndinaona vutoli ndipo ndikanatha kuchitapo kanthu. Ndinamva chiyembekezo chatsopano mkati mwanga. Ndinapanga chosankha cholimba chakuti ndidzachotsa mkwiyo ndi kusaleza mtima mosasamala kanthu za mtengo wake, ndi kuti choyamba ndidzakhala chitsanzo kwa ana anga ndi banja langa. Chinthu choyamba chimene ndinachita chinali kupemphera kwa Mulungu kuti andipatse mphamvu zochita zimenezi.
Ndinazindikiranso kuti ndinali wotanganidwa kwambiri ndi zinthu zambiri masana, moti sindinali kupeza nthaŵi yoŵerenga Mawu a Mulungu. Ndinadziŵa kuti Mawu a Mulungu ali ngati chida (Aefeso 6:17), ndipo popanda kudzidzaza ndi icho ndinalibe cholimbana nacho pamene ndinayesedwa. Choncho, ndinayamba kuwerenga kwambiri Baibulo langa n'cholinga choti ndizigwiritsa ntchito zimene ndimawerenga kuti andithandize pa moyo wanga.
Limodzi mwa mavesi oyambirira amene ndinapeza ndi kugwiritsa ntchito linali lakuti: "Chitani zonse popanda kudandaula ndi kukangana." Afilipi 2:14. M'malo mowona mbali yoipa ya mkhalidwewo, ndinaphunzira kukhala woyamikira ndi kuyang'anizana nawo ndi chimwemwe. Koposa zonse, ndinaona kuti anawo analinso achimwemwe ndi oyamikira kwambiri pamene ndinasamalira zinthu mwanjira imeneyi. Ndinali kukhala chitsanzo!
Vesi lina limene linandithandiza linali lakuti: "Musayang'ane zofuna zanu zokha, koma khalani ndi chidwi ndi ena, nawonso." Afilipi 2:4. Chifukwa cha zimenezi, ndinayamba kuganizira mmene ndingapangire kuti anthu amene ndimakhala nawo akhale abwino komanso kuti ana anga akhale ndi mkhalidwe wabwino.
Mwa kukhala ndi moyo mawu osavuta ameneŵa a Mulungu m'chikhalidwe changa cha tsiku ndi tsiku, ndi mwa kupemphera kwa Mulungu kaamba ka mphamvu ndi chithandizo, ndinayamba kusintha. M'malo mokwiya pamene zinthu sizinayende bwino, ndinayamba kuphunzira kukhala woleza mtima ndi wokoma mtima. M'malo mokhala wosayamika ndi kuona zonse m'njira yoipa ndi yamdima, ndinayamba kuyamikira kwambiri.
Ndikusinthadi
Kunja moyo wanga umawoneka mofanana kwambiri ndi kale. Zidakali zotanganidwa kwambiri kunyumba. Ana anga amamenyanabe ndi kukangana monga momwe ankachitira kale, ndipo amachita monga momwe ana wamba amachitira. Pali zokwera ndi zotsika. Masiku ena amawoneka osavuta pamene masiku ena zonse zikuwoneka kuti zikuyenda molakwika.
Ndimayesedwabe kukhala wosaleza mtima ndi wokwiya, ndipo pamene sindili maso, nthaŵi zina mawu aukali amatulukabe mkamwa mwanga. Koma inenso ndili maso kwambiri. Malingaliro amenewo akabwera, ndimafulumira kwambiri kuwaona chifukwa cha zimene ali ndi kunena kuti "kayi" kwa iwo asanakhale mawu amene angapweteke ena. Mwanjira imeneyo, zomwe zimatuluka sizikuyendetsedwa ndi malingaliro anga kapena tchimo mu chikhalidwe changa, koma ndi Mawu a Mulungu.
Ichi ndi chifukwa chake zambiri zasintha. Ndikudziwa zimenezi chifukwa ndili ndi chimwemwe chachikulu ndi mtendere mwa ine ndekha. Sindikufuna kukhala munthu yemweyo monga momwe ndinali kale. Kupyolera m'pemphero ndi kuŵerenga Mawu a Mulungu kwambiri, ndikuwona bwino lomwe kumene ndifunikira kusintha. Ndikuphunzira kulankhula mawu abwino, okoma mtima kumene kale ndikanakweza mawu anga m'kukwiya. Ndikuthokoza kumene nthawi ina ndikanadandaula. Ndikuganiza za ena kumene kale ndikanangoganiza za ine ndekha. Ndikukhala chitsanzo kwa okhulupirira! Ndipo koposa zonse, ndikusinthadi!
