Ndinakulira ndi kuthekera kulikonse kokhala ndi moyo wachikristu. Nthawi zambiri ndinkamva za kugonjetsa uchimo komanso kuti sindinafunikire kukhala "kapolo" ku zilakolako zomwe zimachokera ku mkhalidwe wanga wokonda kuchita zoipa. Koma m'malo mwake, ndinataya nthaŵi yanga yambiri yaunyamata.
Sindinakhale ndi moyo woipa kunja, ndinakhala mogwirizana ndi zomwe ndinkamvetsa kuti ndi zabwino ndi zoipa. Zimenezi zinandithandiza kwakukulu kuti ndisapange zolakwa zambiri zopusa, koma ndinalibe mphamvu yodzikaniza ndekha ku zilakolako ndi zikhumbitso zimene zimakhala mkati mwanga. Mwa ichi, mayesero amakhala chinthu chimene ndinkaopa chifukwa cha kukula kwa ulamuliro umene mayeserowa anali nawo pa ine. Ndinkaona kuti tchimo lomwe linkakhala mwa ine linali lamphamvu kwambiri kuti ndigonjetse - kuti ndinalibe kuchitira mwina koma kungodzipereka ku uchimo. Maganizo amenewa anali amphamvu kwambiri moti nthawi zina ndikamayesetsa kukana mayesero anga, ndinkadwala kwambiri.
Ndikayang’ana kumbuyo ndi kuganiza za izi, ine ndikudziwa kuti ndi chisomo cha Mulungu kuti ine sindinapatuke panjirayi ndi kulowa mu dziko la zopanda pake ndi louma, chifukwa zoona zake ndi zakuti ndinali kupita ku njira ya chionongekoyi.
Kukhala omvetsera ndi chidwi
"Choncho tiyenera kukhala womvetsera ndi chidwi chachikulu pa zomwe tamva, kuti tisachoke." (Ahebri 2:1). Ndinali ndisanachite zimenezi pa moyo wanga. Ndinali ndisanakhale "womvetsera ndi chidwi chachikulu". Ngakhale kuti ndimadziŵa yankho la mmene ndingamasulidwire ku tchimo limene ndinatha kuona mwa ine, sindinali wokondweretsedwa kwenikweni kuchita izi. Zotsatira zake, ndinali kuchoka mwamsanga pa moyo umene ndinafunikira kukhala nawo. Panali nthawi zina pamene ndimadabwa kuti chifukwa chiyani Mawu a Mulungu sakumveka bwino komanso sali "amoyo" kwa ine?, koma mumtima mwanga ndinazindikira kuti sindinavomerezepo choonadi chokhudza ine mwini - kuti ndinali kapolo wa uchimo.
Kuyesedwa kwa chikhulupiriro chanu
Zinthu zinayamba kusintha pa ine pamene ndinayamba kumvetsa kuti mayesero si chinthu chochititsa mantha, koma ndi mwayi owona tchimo limene lili mwa ine, ndi kulichotsa. Vesi la pa Yakobo 1:2 mwadzidzidzi ndimeyi inandimvekera bwino kuti: "Abale, muchiyese ngati chimwemwe chenicheni nthawi zonse pamene mukukumana ndi mayesero amitundumitundu. Inu mukudziwa kuti kuyesedwa kwa chikhulupiriro chanu kumabweretsa chipiriro."
Kuchokera mu ndime imeneli, ndinayamba kumvetsa kuti mayesero sanafunikire kukhala ndi mphamvu pa ine. M'malo mwake, zinali zoonekeratu kuti mayesero ali onse amakhala mwayi wangwiro kwa ine kumene ndingathe kuona khalidwe langa lochimwa ndi kunena kuti Ayi ku malingaliro omwe amachokera ku izo. Ndikamachita zimenezi nthawi iliyonse, tsiku lina ndikhoza kuthana ndi tchimo limeneli kotheratu.
M'kupita kwa nthaŵi, ndinayamba kuzindikira kuti zosangalatsa za uchimo, zimene nthaŵi zonse zimawoneka zokopa kwambiri ndi zochititsa kaso, zinali zopanda pake ndipo zinalibe phindu. Posapita nthaŵi ndinazindikira kuti zinthu zimene ndinayesedwa nazo ndi zimene ndinali kuzikhumba zinali zopanda pake.
Kuchotsa u "Ine" ndi "undekha wanga"
Koma ngakhale ndi njira yatsopanoyi ya kaganizidwe, zinanditengera nthawi yaitali kuti ndiyambe kuwona kuti "Ine" - malingaliro anga, zofuna zanga, kunyada kwanga - adakali vuto m'moyo wanga. Ndinafunikirabe kuchotsa kunyada konse, kuuma mtima ndi kukhulupirira malingaliro anga omwe ankakhala mozama kwambiri mwa ine. Ndinayesa kugonjetsa machimo ameneŵa ndekha mwa kuchita zimene ndinaganiza kuti zinali zabwino kapena zimene ndinaona kuti zinali zabwino, koma ndimangolephera mobwerezabwereza.
Pamene ndinayamba kuvomereza kuti kunali kosatheka kuchita zimenezo ndekha, zinaonekeratu kwa ine kuti ndinafunikira kukhulupirira Mulungu munyengo zanga zonse, osati kokha pamene kunandiyenerera. Inde, kwa nthawi yaitali ndinavomereza kuti Mulungu anali ndi malo m'moyo wanga ndipo, inde, nthawi zonse ndinkamva chisoni ndikachimwa, koma sindinali kulimbana bwino ndi mayeserowa asanafike. - Ndipo ichi sichinali chinthu chofunika kwambiri kwa ine kukonzekera mayeserowo asafike pa moyo wanga wa tsiku ndi tsiku zomwe ndinkadziwa kuti zikubwera. Zotsatira zake mayesero aja akafika, ndimakhala wopanda mphamvu kotheratu kuti nditsutsane nawo.
Moyo wachikristu wochitachita
Kuyesedwa ndi mayesero molumikiza, ndaphunzira kufunika kogwiritsa ntchito Mawu a Mulungu ngati chida chotsutsana ndi uchimo - chida chomwe chili ndi mphamvu zambiri kuposa malingaliro ndi kumvetsetsa kwanga. Ndikhoza kupeza mphamvu nthawi iliyonse ndikatsegula Baibulo langa, m'mavesi monga 1 Akorinto 10:13 : "Palibe mayesero amene mwakumana nawo oposa amene anthu ena onse anakumana nawo. Mulungu ngokhulupirika; sadzalola kuti inu muyesedwe koposa muyeso umene mutha kupirira. Koma pamene mwayesedwa, Iyenso adzakupatsani njira yopambanira mayeserowo."
Ngakhale ndingavutike ndi mayesero ambiri usiku ndi usana, sindidzayesedwa kwambiri kuposa mmene ndingapirire. Limenelo ndilo lonjezo limene laperekedwa kwa ine!
Pamene ndikhala wokhulupirika ndi kukhala pafupi ndi Mulungu, Iye adzandithandiza kukhala maso pamene mayesero ayamba kuuka mkati mwanga. Moyo wachikristu uyenera kukhala wokangalika, osati wosasamala. Ndiyenera kudziwa kuti mdierekezi adzabwera ngati mkango wobangula (1 Petro 5:8) pamene ndikudutsa tsiku langa, ndipo ndi ntchito yanga kukhala wokonzeka.
Panali zaka zambiri zimene ndinawononga ndisanapange chisankho chofuna kuthana ndi tchimo limene limakhala mwa ine. Koma Satana akabwera kudzandikumbutsa zakale zanga, ndimamuuza za tsogolo langa. Mayesero ali onse omwe amabwera ndi mwayi wosonyeza zomwe ndasankha ndi zomwe ndikulimbana nazo. Ngati ndipita patsogolo tsiku ndi tsiku, ndikudzikonzekeretsa ndi Mawu a Mulungu chifukwa cha nyengo zimene ndidzakumana nazo, zikunditsimikizira kuti n'zotheka kukhala osinthika kotheratu.