Pamene ndinali kuyembekezera kuti moto uwunikire thambo chaka chapitacho, kuwerengera chaka chatsopano, kodi ndikanaganiza zonse zomwe zinachitika chaka chino?
Sindingathe kunena kuti chaka chakhala choipa. Pakhala nthaŵi zambiri zokongola zodzaza ndi kuseka, ndipo kulingalira chirichonse kumandidzaza ndi chiyamikiro chenicheni. Inenso sindingathe kunena kuti chaka chakhala chophweka. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo, ndimakumbukira zinthu zina mosavuta.
Panali mavuto a tsiku ndi tsiku, pamene ndinapeza kuti ndikupemphera kuti Mulungu andithandize kuchita ntchito yomwe ndinkaopa kuchita, kapena kundipatsa nzeru ndi ndalama zanga. Pakhala nthawi zina zomvetsa chisoni, kusowa okondedwa omwe ali kutali ndikuphunzira kuthana ndi mfundo yakuti sangakhale nane. Panali makhalidwe osayembekezereka kwambiri omwe sindinamvetse. Ndinkaganiza kuti ndili ndi chikhulupiriro cholimba, koma ndinkaona kuti ndilibe chiyembekezo moti ndinkakayikira ngati Mulungu alipo.. Tsiku ndi tsiku, ndinkayesetsa kugwiritsitsa, kuphunzira kukhala ndi moyo mwa chikhulupiriro, ndikudabwa chifukwa chake zimenezi zinali kundichitikira.
Pali ndakatulo yodziwika bwino yokhudza munthu yemwe anayamba ulendo wake ndi Mulungu pambali pake, ndikusiya mapazi awiri mumchenga kumbuyo kwake Koma poyang'ana m'mbuyo m'nthaŵi zake zotsika kwambiri ndi zomvetsa chisoni, anaona phazilimodzi lokha m'malo mwa aŵiri. Anayamba kukayikira kuti Mulungu anali naye m'nthaŵi zimenezi. Koma Mulungu anamuyankha kuti: "Pa nthawi ya mayesero ndi kuvutika kwanu, pamene munaona phazi limodzi lokha, pamenepo ndi pamene ndinakunyamulani."
Ndakatulo imeneyi inakhala yowona kwa ine chaka chino.
Tsiku lina m'nyengo yovuta, moyo unakhala wamdima kwambiri ndi wolemera kwa ine. Ndinagona ndikuyesetsa kusankha kukhulupirira ndi kuthokoza Mulungu ngakhale nditamva bwino. Nditadzuka ndinkaona ngati Mulungu wandipatsa mphamvu zatsopano. Ndinakumbukira kuti ndinali ndi anthu m'moyo wanga amene amandikonda kwambiri. Ndinakumana ndi ubwino wambiri moti zinandikumbutsa zonse zimene Mulungu wandipatsa m'moyo. Ndingaiwale bwanji! Iye wandipatsa zambiri, ndipo Iye ananditheketsa kupereka ndi kudalitsa enawo, malinga ndi chifuniro Chake.
Ndinaphunzira kuti palibe njira yabwino yothetsera mavuto anga kuposa kuchitira ena zabwino, m'malo mongoganizira za khalidwe langa. Pali zambiri zimene ndingachite, m'malo modabwa chifukwa chake zinthu zimenezi zikundichitikira, ndipo zinthu zimene sindikumvetsa, ndikhoza kuzisiya m'manja mwa Mulungu, podziwa kuti Iye adzazisamalira.
Sindinamve kuti ndili ndi zambiri zopereka, koma kumwetulira, kukumbatirana ndi ntchito zina zachifundo, kuthera nthawi ndi ena omwe akufuna bwenzi - chimenecho ndi chinthu chomwe chingakhale dalitso kwa ena.
Mavuto anga sanathe onse nthawi imodzi, koma Mawu a Mulungu ndi oona: "Kuperekamabweretsa chimwemwe chochuluka kuposa kulandira." Machitidwe 20:35 (GNT). Zinandisangalatsa kwambiri ndipo zinandipatsa mphamvu kuti ndidutse mayesero anga, ndipo zinali ndi zotsatira zochiritsa zomwe zimakhala zovuta kufotokoza. Sichinali chinthu chimene ndikanatha kumvetsa ndi kuchita ndekha. Kuyang'ana m'mbuyo, zinali zoonekeratu kuti anali Mulungu amene anandikweza mu mdima wanga, anandinyamula ndi kundipatsa mphamvu yogwiritsira ntchito moyo wanga pa chinthu chabwino m'malo mwake.
Ndaona kuti chimene chimandipatsa chimwemwe chochuluka, si chakuti ndingadalitse enawo. Ndi mfundo yakuti ine ndekha ndikhoza kukula ndi kusintha. Pamene ndinaganiza kuti ndinali ndi chikhulupiriro cholimba mwa Mulungu, Iye anandisonyeza mmene ndinali ndi chikhulupiriro chochepa, kotero kuti ndikulitse ku chikhulupiriro cholimba kwambiri. Pamene ndinaganiza kuti ndafika malire anga, Mulungu anandisonyeza kuti Iye akhoza kunditheketsa kupirira zambiri kuposa zimene ndinadziŵa kuti ndingathe kupirira.
Nditafunsa kuti, "Kodi ndachita chiyani kuti ndiyenerere zimenezi?" Ndinaphunzira kuti mtumiki ayenera kungoganiza zopereka, popanda kuyembekezera kanthu kena, ndipo nthaŵi zonse ayenera kukumbukira kuti pali zambiri zimene angapereke. Panali kukula ndi moyo mkati mwanga ngakhale panthawi yovuta, ndipo zimenezo zinandichititsa kukhala wokhutira komanso wosangalala komanso wokondwa kwambiri ndi moyo.
Mnzanga wina wakale nthawina anandiuza mmene moyo wakhalira ulendo wabwino ndi wachimwemwe kwa iye. Ndinayang'ana nkhope yake yomasuka ndi yachimwemwe, ndikuganiza za zonse zomwe wakumana nazo: mavuto azachuma ndi nthawi zina zambiri zovuta, kusamvetsetsedwa ndi kuchitiridwa molakwika. Tsopano ndikumvetsetsa zomwe ankatanthauza: sizinali kuti moyo nthawi zonse unali "wabwino komanso wosavuta", koma adaganiza zovomereza zonse m'moyo ngati zabwino kwambiri zomwe Mulungu angamupatse. Ndipo chifukwa chakuti anakhulupirira zimenezi, analaŵa ubwino wa Mulungu.
Tsopano, kumapeto kwa chaka chino, ndinalingaliranso mawu a bwenzi langa ndipo ndinadzazidwa ndi kuyamikira. Sichinali chaka "chabwino" chomwe ndikanakonza. Nthaŵi zina zinali zovuta, koma zinandipatsa zambiri kuposa zimene ndikanapempha.
Ndikudabwa kuti chaka chamawa chidzakhala chotani. Kuweruza kuchokera m'zaka zapitazi, ndikudziwa kuti zidzakhala bwino kuposa zomwe ndingayembekezere. "Moyo ndi ulendo wosangalatsa," ndikuganiza. Chidzakhala chaka china chosangalatsa chatsopano.