Ndinali ndi moyo wabwino ndi osati zambiri nkhawa. Koma panthaŵi imodzimodziyo ndinalimbana ndi malingaliro a nkhaŵa kwa pafupifupi nthaŵi yonse imene ndikukumbukira. Ndinali kuda nkhawa ndi chilichonse ndipo malingaliro amenewa ankandilamulira. Mitundu yonse ya malingaliro monga, "Kodi ndimagwirizana ndi ena?" "Kodi ndine wabwinobwino?" "Anthu akandiyang'ana kodi amaganiza kuti ndine wabwinobwino?"
Ndikudziwa kuti aliyense amada nkhawa nthawi zina koma ndi ine zinali zambiri kuposa nthawi zonse. Kuyambira ndili wamng'ono ndinayamba kuganizira zam'tsogolo, kodi chidzachitike n'chiyani, kodi ndidzakhala wonyansa ndikadzakhala wamkulu? Ndipo nthawi zonse mumada nkhawa ndi zomwe anthu ena amakuganizirani ndi kunena kumbuyo kwanu.
Ndinayesa kudziuza kuti pamene chinthu chimenecho chimene ndimada nkhaŵa chichitika ndiye kuti ndikhoza kupumula. Pamenepo sindikusowanso kudandaula za izo. Koma kenako chinachake chikabwera. Zimayambiranso ndipo sizitha.
N'zotheka kukhala mfulu
Maganizo amenewa sanali omveka ngakhale pang'ono. Iwo mwina ngakhale pang'ono zopusa koma ndi njira ine ndingaganize, ndipo maganizo amenewa anabwera pafupifupi tsiku lililonse. Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi izi kwa nthawi yaitali.
Ndinkadziwa kuti Mawu a Mulungu amanena kuti sitiyenera kuda nkhawa koma sindinkadziwa kusiya.
Kwa nthawi yaitali sindinachitepo kanthu. Ndinali nditamva kuti monga Mkhristu tiyenera kumenya nkhondo yolimbana ndi tchimo lathu koma sindinalimbane ndi chilichonse m'moyo wanga panthawiyo. Ndinkangoda nkhawa ndi chilichonse, nthawi zonse.
Koma kenaka tsiku lina panali mtsikana wina m'tchalitchi chathu amene ananena moona mtima kuti anayamba kulimbana ndi malingaliro a nkhaŵa. Ndipo kenako ndinazindikira kuti, "Izi n'zotheka. Izi ndi zenizeni." Kuyambira tsiku limenelo ndakhala ndikulimbana. Pa tsiku limenelo ndinadziŵa kuti n'zotheka kukhala mfulu.
Zinthu zonse zimagwira ntchito limodzi kwabwino
Zimandithandiza kuganiza za vesi la pa Aroma 8:28 (NLT) lomwe limati, "Ndipo tikudziwa kuti Mulungu amachititsa kuti zonse zigwire ntchito limodzi kuti anthu amene amakonda Mulungu akhale abwino ndipo amaitanidwa mogwirizana ndi cholinga chake kwa iwo." Choncho chilichonse chimene chimachitika ndikudziwa kuti ndi chifuniro cha Mulungu ndi kuti Iye amaonetsetsa kuti zinthu zonse ntchito pamodzi zabwino kwa ine.
Muyenera kungokhala ndi chikhulupiriro chosavuta. Ngati muyamba kukayikira vesi limenelo mu mkhalidwe woipa ndikuganiza kuti, "Izi ndizoopsa, kodi izi zingakhale bwanji zabwino kwa ine?" ndiye kuti muyenera kunena mwamphamvu Ayi ku malingaliro amenewo ndikungokhala ndi chikhulupiriro chosavuta kuti kwenikweni ndi chabwino kwambiri. Ndimasankha kukhulupirira kuti mkhalidwe uliwonse umagwira ntchito bwino kwambiri, ngakhale kuti sindikuwona nthawi yomweyo.
Kotero mwina ndikukhala ndi tsiku lovuta kwambiri koma kenako ndikuwona kuti ndine wosaleza mtima kwenikweni kapena ndimaweruza anthu kapena chirichonse chimene chiri. Mwina ndinanyadira. Ndipo pamene ine ndikuona tchimo limenelo, ine ndikhoza kuvomereza izo, kutenga izo kwa Yesu, ndi kupempha Iye kundithandiza kuchotsa izo, ndiyeno ine kukhala pang'ono kwambiri ngati Yesu. Umu ndi mmene Mulungu amagwirira ntchito mmene zinthu zilili pa moyo wanga.
Kugonjetsa nkhawa
Pamene malingaliro a nkhawa abwera, ndimawatsutsa, sindikugwirizana nawo, ndimanena kuti Ayi ku malingaliro awa ndipo ndikukumbukira kuti Mulungu amagwira ntchito zonse kuti ndipeze zabwino zanga. Pamene sindilola malingaliro ameneŵa kukhala ndi moyo, ndiye kuti mbali pang'ono ya chikhalidwe changa imene imadetsa nkhaŵa mosavuta imafa. Ndipo pamene ndikulimbana kwambiri ndi malingaliro ameneŵa, m'pamenenso ndidzakanthidwa nawo pang'ono. Ndi chiyembekezo changa kuti m'tsogolomu ndidzagonjetsa kwathunthu kotero kuti sindidzayesedwa ngakhale kuda nkhawa.
Pali kale kusiyana kwakukulu m'moyo wanga. Poyamba, sindinkatha kusiya kuda nkhawa. Zinali zovuta kuti ndikhale wosangalala koma tsopano ndili ndi chimwemwe mumtima mwanga. Chimwemwe chodabwitsa, choyera. Ndinkakonda kusangalala kwa nthawi yochepa pakati pa malingaliro odandaula. Koma chimwemwe chatsopanochi ndi chimwemwe chosiyana. Ndi chimwemwe chozikidwa pa mawu a Mulungu; sizitha. Ndamenyera nkhondo ndipo ndikulimbanabe nazo!
Zimenezi zimandibweretsera chimwemwe chenicheni chimene ndinali kusowa kale. Koma ndili nazo tsopano. Zambiri tsiku lililonse.