Wophunzira ndi munthu amene nthawi zonse amasankha kuchita chifuniro cha Mulungu m'malo mwa chifuniro chawo pa moyo uliwonse. (Luka 25:33.)
Yesu anati: "Osati chifuniro changa koma chifuniro chanu chiyenera kuchitidwa." Luka 22:42. Kodi mudzasankha moyo wotero? Inu nokha mungayankhe zimenezo, koma ichi ndi chifukwa chake ndinatero . Ichi ndi chifukwa chake ndinasankha kukhala wophunzira.
Gawo loyamba
Ndili mnyamata, ndinapita ku ulendo wa kumapeto kwa mlungu ndi gulu la anyamata m'tchalitchi changa. Tinkasewera mpira ndipo madzulo tinkamvetsera nkhani za m'Baibulo. Pa Loŵeruka madzulo amenewo, tinakhala mozungulira ndi kumvetsera mmodzi wa atsogoleriwo akulankhula za kukhala ndi moyo m'malo mwa Yesu. Pambuyo pake, iwo anafunsa ngati aliyense wa ife anafuna kunena kanthu kena. Mnzanga wina wamkulu pang'ono kuposa ine analumpha, koma m'malo monena chinachake anapempha kupempherera.
Pambuyo pake, enanso anachita chimodzimodzi, mmodzi ndi mmodzi akupempha kupempherera ndi kupempherera. Mwamsanga unakhala msonkhano wa mapemphero. Sindinali wotsimikiza kwambiri kuti zonse zinali zotani, koma ndinkaona kuti sindikufuna kuphonya. Ndinapempha mmodzi wa atsogoleriwo kupemphera nane kuti: "Chonde ndithandizeni kukhala ndi moyo chifukwa cha Yesu. Panopa sindikumvetsa bwinobwino, koma ndithandizeni kuchita zimenezi ndikamvetsa." Panthaŵiyo sindinanene kuti ndinali wophunzira, koma ndinali nditaika njerwa yoyamba m'maziko a moyo Wachikristu. Ndipo pamene musunga zimene munasankha, zidzakhala ndi phindu losatha.
Koma kenako ndinakulira...
Ndili wachinyamata, ndinazindikira kuti sindinali "munthu wabwino" ngati mmene ndinkaganizira. Ndinakwiya mosavuta, ndinali wodzikuza kwambiri, ndipo ndinayamba kupezerera ena.
Ndinkakhulupirira kuti machimo anga anakhululukidwa, koma ndinapeza kuti ndikuchita zinthu zomwe sizinali zabwino kwa anthu omwe ndinali nawo ndipo ndinkavutika ndi malingaliro odetsedwa omwe ndinkachita nawo manyazi. Zimenezi zinandikwiyitsa. Sindinkafuna kuchimwa, koma ndinkaona ngati sindingathe kuithandiza. Ndinakwiyira Satana chifukwa chakuti ndinapeza kuti ndikuchita ndi kuganiza zinthu zimene ndinali nazo chisoni kwambiri. Ndiyeno ndinaganiza kuti chilichonse chimene chinachitika, sindidzachita kanthu mwadala kapena kulola malingaliro anga kupita m'njira imene ndinadziŵa kuti inali yolakwika. Imeneyo inali pafupifupi njira yanga yobwerera kwa Satana.
Ndikukumbukira bwino lomwe kuti chosankha chimenechi chinandipatsa lingaliro lalikulu la mtendere. Ndinapezabe kuti ndinachita zinthu zimene ndinkamvera chisoni pambuyo pake, koma sindinkaona kuti ndikuweruzidwa ndi kudulidwa ndi Mulungu. M'malo mwake, ndinamva chisoni chimene chinandichititsa kuyandikira kwa Mulungu. (2 Akorinto 7:11.) Ndikuganiza kuti ndinali nditapeza chimodzi mwa zinsinsi zazikulu za uthenga wabwino: "Koma ngati ndichita chinthu chenichenicho chomwe sindikufuna kuchita, ndiye kuti sindine amene ndikuchitanso. M'malo mwake, ndi tchimo limene limakhala mwa ine limene likuchita zimenezo." Aroma 7:20. " Ine" ndinkafuna chinachake chosiyana ndi "tchimo limene limakhala mwa ine".
Ndinapemphera ndi mtima wonse kuti ndikhale womasuka ku tchimo limene ndinapeza mwa ine ndekha. Makamaka ndinkavutika ndi malingaliro odetsedwa, chifukwa kusiyana pakati pa kuyesedwa ndi kuchimwa m'maganizo mwanga sikunali koonekeratu kwa ine. Koma pang'ono ndi pang'ono, ndinayamba kukhulupirira kuti n'zotheka kuti ndigonjetse tchimo limene ndinapeza mwa ine ndekha.
Chisankho chachikulu
Pamene ndinali ndi zaka pafupifupi khumi ndi zisanu, ndinapita ku msonkhano wa achichepere Wachikristu. Panthaŵiyo, ndinali ndi chokumana nacho cha kugonjetsa uchimo m'dera linalake, koma ndinalakalaka zambiri. Pamene ndinamvetsera okamba nkhani pamsonkhanowo, ndinapeza chikhulupiriro chakuti mwa kumvera Mzimu Woyera, ndikanatha kugonjetsa pang'onopang'ono uchimo wonse m'moyo wanga.
Ndinazindikira kuti sindinafunikire kugonjetsa tchimo lonse m'moyo wanga nthawi imodzi, koma kuti ndikhoza kupita patsogolo sitepe ndi sitepe pamene chiyeso chilichonse chinabwera ndipo ndinafika poona tchimo mwa ine. Ndinamvetsetsanso kuti panali tchimo m'chibadwa changa chaumunthu limene sindinali kulidziŵabe, koma kuti Yesu adzandisonyeza tchimo limeneli panthaŵi yoyenera.
Ndinapeza chikhulupiriro kuti ngati ndinadzipereka kwathunthu kuchita chifuniro cha Mulungu mu mkhalidwe uliwonse, ndidzafika pa moyo wogonjetsa chiyeso chilichonse chochimwa, monga momwe Paulo analembera pa 2 Akorinto 2:14, "Koma zikomo kwa Mulungu, amene nthawi zonse amatitsogolera ife mu chigonjetso kudzera mwa Khristu."
Yesu anati: "Onse ofuna kudza pambuyo panga ayenera kukana okha, kutenga mtanda wawo tsiku ndi tsiku, ndi kunditsatira." Luka 9:23. Zimenezi zikutanthauza kukana chikhumbo chilichonse chofuna kuchimwa ndi "kuwapha" ndisanachite tchimo limene ndikuyesedwa. Monga momwe Paulo akufotokozera pa Agalatiya 5:24, "Iwo amene ali a Kristu Yesu apachika uchimo wawo. Iwo asiya malingaliro awo akale adyera ndi zinthu zoipa zimene ankafuna kuchita."
Vesi lomwe linandimamatira ku msonkhano umenewo linali Agalatiya 2:20, lomwe limati, "Umunthu wanga wakale wapachikidwa ndi Khristu. Si ine amene ndili ndi moyo, koma Khristu amakhala mwa ine."
"Kudzikonda kwanga kwakale kwapachikidwa ..." Mwa chikhulupiriro, "ndikufa" pamodzi ndi Yesu. Osati kufa mwakuthupi, koma kufa ku uchimo. (2 Akorinto 4:10,11.)
"Si ine amene ndili ndi moyo, koma Khristu amakhala mwa ine." Ngati ndisankha kuchita chifuniro cha Mulungu m'malo mwa changa pamene ndikuyesedwa, ndiye kuti kodi zimenezi si zoona? "Ine" (chifuniro changa) sichikhalanso ndi moyo. M'malo mwake, Khristu amakhala mwa ine. Zilakolako zauchimo m'chibadwa changa chaumunthu sizimapatsidwa malo alionse a kukula kapena kukula. Ndasankha kuchita chifuniro cha Mulungu ndipo "ndikufa" ku uchimo. Umenewo unali umboni wa Paulo ndipo tsopano udzakhala umboni wanga komanso.
Chifukwa chake ndine wophunzira
Kwa ine, sikuti ndinkaona kuti ndiyenera kusiya kuchimwa ngati ndikufuna kukhala wophunzira. Ayi, chifukwa chimene ndinakhalira wophunzira chinali chifukwa chakuti ndinafuna kukhala womasuka ku uchimo! Ndinaona kuti "kufuna" kwanga, zofuna zanga, zilakolako ndi zokhumba zanga zinaipitsidwa ndi uchimo ndi kuti kugonjera kwa iwo kudzachititsa kutaya kosatha kwa ine ndi anthu ozungulira ine. Ndicho chifukwa chake tsiku lililonse, mu mkhalidwe uliwonse m'moyo kumene ndikuwona zina mwa chifuniro changa chadyera, ndimasankha kuchita chifuniro cha Mulungu m'malo mwake.
Pali zinthu zambiri zimene ndimasangalala nazo monga wophunzira, monga moyo wosatha, kudziŵa Yesu, ndi kuyanjana ndi okhulupirira ena. Koma chifukwa chimene ndinali wofunitsitsa kusiya chifuniro changa m'mbali iriyonse ya moyo chinali chifukwa chakuti ndinawona mwaŵi waulemerero wa kukhala womasuka kotheratu ku uchimo mkati mwa moyo wanga.
